Day 5 - Your Dreams

My dream will be to open a tze cha stall. Many people have been asking me why haven't i started to learn cooking etc. Finding a job related to this industry etc etc. I guess I pretty much still hesitating to go into what kind of business. One point of time, I was thinking of a nasi lemak stall. But now I'm more keen in having a dim sum stall. I realised that the dim sum culture here in Singapore is dull and boring. I am very keen in setting up a business as I know I hate people telling me what to do etc and stuff. Next, I like lots of freedom and autonomy on my side. Currently I'm working as an engineer. My job is pretty desk bound which is something that I didn't really like. I'd very much prefer working on site, talking to different people, managing them. It's a pity that I like the industry that I'm in but not the position that I'm offered. Kindda felt that I'm tricked into the post, haha. Generating reports and doing some fundamental analysis isn't my cup of tea. Hence, it's just a job for me now. As for now, I'll try to enjoy life through my other little activities in life and save up as much money to invest in my future dream. Not forgetting to continue to travel around as much as possible! Seeing the world and seeing myself...

Be generous with your praises!

The bus uncle service was excellent. So I decided to commend him! I hope he received praises from his bosses!

Reply letter from SMRT

Our Ref: BS-CM-1011-0030


Dear Ms Teo,

Thank you for kind compliment.

On your behalf, we will extend your appreciation to the service leader
for bus service 173.

Once again, we would like to thank you for your commendation and we wish
you a pleasant day.

Yours sincerely,
XXXX
Customer Relations
SMRT Corporation Ltd

(name crossed out due to privacy issues)

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Sorry for not writing my letters regularly. So here's one. My sibling is a pig. Yeah, everyone should know about it. She's 6 years younger than me and darn irritating. She's very messy with her stuff and keeps buying cute boxes to dump in her diferent items. Her handwriting is so puny and you need to squint your eyes so hard to read it. The worst thing is that she uses my stuff without my permission. I don't know what can I say to compliment her. Ah! I know, she tells me what's the latest trend in teenagers now. So at least I constantly feel young and as updated as those young punks out there. Like at scape there's this shop whereby they have buffet service in which you pay a fixed price and try to squeeze in the many items you like into a basket. Meanwhile, she's a pig even though she was born in a year of cock.

Day 3 — Your parents

K..Sensitive topic. My parents are people whom I'll tell everyone that they don't care about me. However, everyone around me tells me that they give me lots of autonomy. I guess it's due to my upbringing when I was very young. At a tender age of primary 3 I took a mrt train alone, all the way from Bukit Batok to Novena station. I was taught to be independent and do things on my own. Had to wash my own shoes, wash my plates after eating my dinner, iron my clothes. Even had to do housework at times and i dread it.
Financially, i handled it upon myself too. I try not to ask money from my parents as I'm pretty shy about it. I took whatever my parents gave me and topped up on my own if i felt that i needed more. Ever since after A levels, I stopped taking pocket money from my parents. I believed that I'm capable of providing for myself through part time work.
My parents took the effort to speak english and chinese to me. My mom realised that it's important to know both languages and realised that I don't speak enough chinese. Thus, i speak to my dad in Chinese and my mother in English. It turned out that eventually i became more well versed in Chinese than in English. That I've got to attribute it to Channel 8 tv shows. As for my lousy English, I attribute to my my mom's broken English (and my lacklustre effort in trying to improve it).
The biggest thing that I'm grateful towards my parents is that they give me full autonomy in whatever I do. No curfews, no limits. I make every single decision by myself. Next thing will be that they help me with washing of my clothes and cooking of dinner at times, it's important k! I've loads of things to do and this help me take a little time off so I can indulge in tv watching.

Day 2 — Your Crush

Crushes are people whom you fantasied to be with be usually won't worked out with. So I don't consider my boyfriends, be it old or current one, crushes. I remember having crushes during my secondary school daze whereby bgr in my school was quite an "in" thing. It's nice to have a very good boy friend to have out after school and gather 'awss' from your classmates. However, I consider those a fantasy. I remember writing a journal entry for my crushes. Reading back then, i seemed to be quite serious over them! Really amusing! I think the most recent crush I had was before my current boyfriend. Hence, it's during my uni days. I guess I had a pretty good impression of this guy but I pretty much know that we won't end up together. Yah, we didn't even get close even though we see each other quite often. It didn't lasted very long because I more pre-occupied with other stuff rather than thinking about him. Crushes aren't meant to be serious anyway.. Thanks to all these guys who gave me pretty impressions!

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Kay..this first letter is rather dumb and self explanatory. Yet again, I guess friends definitely need some form of recognition for their good efforts right? Haha. Those who knows me well enough should know that I've got 3 good friends. Drats, feeling so weird to spell out their names. Becca, Man Jun and Ziqi named in alphabetical order and in no accordance of favourisms towards anyone of them. For Bec, we first met each other during our primary school days already. She's my fellow Chinese tuition mate. Yes, you're not reading it wrongly, I used to have Chinese tuition. Hmm..but it's weird, I don't remember my Chinese being that bad. As for Zq, got to know her from sec 1 onwards. That girl with the zuai look..Lastly will be Man Jun, got to know her during leadership training camp. She was in the same group as me and both of us clicked really well. Then on, i introduced her to our gang. Seems like from secondary onwards, the 3 of us just stuck together. The main bonding that initially bec,zq and i had was npcc. We're known as the powerpuff girls. Yes, i know it's damn childish but come on' it's the name given by our seniors. It's a pretty awesome name because we're really strong girls who could do almost anything and even better than the guys. Not that I'm trying to exaggerate or anything but it's true! I guess our independent and sporty vibes in us just clicks. Even though we didn't go on to the same jc or poly, we make an effort to try to meet up regularly and update each other. It's quite surprising that we can just pour out our nonsense depsite not meeting for a long time. We just want to share our thoughts and experience with one another. Counting back from secondary 1 till now, it's been 10 years of friendship and cheers to further 10 years on. Now that we've all graduated from school (except bec who will be graduating at the end of year), and moved on to the working society. I guess the next phase of our life will be career, marriage and so on so for. Cheers to 10 years of friendship!

super old photo, when we were super young..

30 letters..

I read this on my friend's blog then i thought it'll be good to start this letter writing thing myself as well. I thought that it'll be good to pen down these memories and read them again probably 10 years later. Laughing at all the foolish things that i've typed. Then again, all these silly writing are part and parcel of my growing up process. Though it says a letter a day, but think i'll try to speed things up. If anyone is reading my blog still...enjoy and grow with me!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Holidays of 2010..

Since the year will be ending soon, though it's only october! i shall count the number of days whereby i'm overseas. I vividly remember counting my holidays last year as well, though this year will pale in comparision, but nevertheless, some holidays are better than none!

First up, new year, Malacca trip, 1 day, eve and the eve of eve don't count at year 2010. Guys who know me that i haven't been celebrating new years in Singapore. I remembered the first time spending new year overseas was during year 1, 19 year old at a Kelong in Sibu island. Hence, i haven't been spending new years in singapore for 4 years already. Sticking closely to this weird habit of mine, i insist on going overseas during new year period even though holidaying at this period will be at cut throat prices. Next, going to Malacca again, but with a different group of people, 3 days. New country, Cambodia! 19 days added. Following up, batam 1 day. Then on, Petaling Jaya, Malaysia for 3 days. My latest trip, diving at Tioman for 3 days. If I'm heading somewhere again during Deepavali holiday, it'll be another 3 days (not tabulated in my holiday list). Lastly will be my trip to Australia, so excited about it! Adding another 12 days to it. My actual aussie trip will be longer, but remember i'm only counting my holidays for year 2010. In total, I've got 42 days of holiday! Whee...Think it's a feat despite my tight financial ability.

Next year's holidays will be considerably less, unless my company decided me to send me overseas of which i seriously doubt so! I will not hesitate to clear all the 18 days of leave that I'm granted of! Most importantly, i must go trek at a new place. I haven't trekked at any new mountains or hills this year, utterly disappointed! However, this year seemed to be a diving year for me. I shall go up and higher next year!

Sheesh, my post is damn childish, can't take it or the singlish way of saying, 'buay tahan'.

How much sleep do you need?

Can't believe that i slept at about 10.30pm yesterday night! I must be really tired from inhaling all the smog from Sumatra. I guess my sleeping habits have been rather consistent. I wake up at 6.20am and sleep at about 12am latest. If it's friday, I'll tend to sleep slightly later but if i've got a deal early tomorrow, i'll still sleep much later. Coz it's friday! Hah! Anyway, i read a report that sleeping too little will cause weight gain. So it's time to get more sleep! 7hours at least! Let's work towards my aim of slimming down. Seems like all my running isn't helping. Another noteworthy point, why doesn't my company allow napping in office! It's 45 more min to end of work. Slack day today as garmen will be on long leave tomorrow onwards. Happy happy.

Last point to note, it's my piggy sister's birthday today. 20/10/2010 good for her. Anyway, Happy Birthday and hope you'll grow taller. (Even though I know it's quite unattainable, nonetheless, a wish with very good intentions!)

Life's been pretty good so far....

other than the fact that i got quite sick recently. being sick = cannot excercise = become fat. i'm recovering quite well already so it's time for more jogging!
other than the fact that KIA cerato is changed to Honda city. the brake paddle is much more stiff and the idling engine is much noiser! hmm...should we change to Mitshubishi lancer instead? Decisions decisions...
other than the fact that work is rather boring. however, i'm pretty much enjoying the much time i have to surf online and to even blog.
other than the fact that one of my kid has decided to temporary stop tuition coz it's the holidays...no student = no extra income
other than the fact that i lost money in mahjong and became the biggest loser. initially was the biggest winner, then turned loser. gosh.

otherwise, life's been pretty good so far...

Meeting Expectations

Sometimes when you gives this amount of attention to this person and you do hope that the person is able to return you with the equal amount of it, or maybe surpassing it. However, we all know that this won't occur. Using the conservation of energy law, all energy in a system has to be conserved, no energy can be created or destroyed. However, we also know that some form of energy may be lost to the surrounding, example to friction, heat, sound etc. I guess this works the same in life as well. When you put in this amount of effort into your work, hoping in turn that you'll do well, have a good future blah blah. But money, peers, indugles, tempetations are the factors that drain away the effort that you're putting in.

The thing is that people or perharps yourself have expectations on oneself, in order to meet these expectations, you gonna put in some efforts. And as of what I've mentioned above, that energy will be drained away due to several factors, we need to give in more effort. Some people lament that to avoid disspointment is to expect less, i beg to differ. Why can't just someone put in more effort?

Listening this song brings back fond memories..

卢广仲 - Nice To Meet You

我就在淡水河的旁边
我看着太阳慢慢不见
每天一到了这个时候
我会在回家的公车上面

就快要爱上了淡水
除了雨下不停的冬天
不管未来会在哪一边 都还是会想念

不能忘记的有大一开学的那天
还有一起去过的海边
你说人生要疯狂几遍
我都懂 只是习惯比较早点睡
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

我还在淡水河的旁边
这里的风景有些改变
但我还是沿着河边走
才发现我们认识那么久

天知道我有多爱淡水
除了雨下不停的冬天
不管未来会在哪一边 都还是会想念

不能忘记的有遇见你的那一天
还有熬夜到天亮的冒险
人生就是要疯狂几遍
我都懂 但是能不能健康一点
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

不能忘记的有大一开学的那天
还有一起去过的海边
你说人生要疯狂几遍
我都懂 只是习惯比较早睡~
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

时间能不能永远停在 这边

I wonder..

i wonder sometimes why do i like to pack up my schedule. i guess i'm just kiasu, wanna do everything and anything.

anyway, on a random note, me and xl is helping my colleague with courting a girl. so we are always advising him stuff on r/s issues. it's quite fun to bitch about such stuff and fancy my 30 year old colleague blushing whenever we talks about his girl. in fact, i would highly recommend any girl to my fellow colleague coz i really thinks that he'll make a good boyfriend and husband! he's patient, meticulous, soft spoken and yet a little lame. i think if he was in better health, all the girls will be queuing a line to him. talking on about this, we'd give suggestions on presents to buy for the girl (her birthday is approaching). he was making a card for her! how sweet is that! i totally like guys who puts efforts into making gifts for someone. sometime we would also discuss about marriage proposal and plans...blah. hmm..i think i've got fetish for soft-spoken guys! hee....

人身有多少十年？

工作了三个月已足以让我领悟到许多。。我的下一步该往哪走呢？既然我还很年轻，我因该去闯一闯。还是这只是一时冲动的想法呢？我通常是个很果断的人，这次真的让我很懊恼。还是走一步看一步吧。

i need someone who likes me more than he likes himself.

A day without boss 2 + happy children's day!

boss isn't around today so i happily whizzed into the office late. with a bad hangover from yesterday. was quite glad that i didn't drink more, else think it'd be worst. not forgetting i've got tuition after work today as well!

surfed net whole day coz boss isn't around. nothing much to do also.
ended work yesterday at 5pm and went to meet dolph for dinner at alexandar. dinned at bali thai, ambience was nice but the natural atmosphere gave rised to lots of mozzie. the food wasn't that fantastic as well. i think thai express was better. later on, went to st james' bellini room to celebrate ian's birthday. utterly glad that it was happy hour on a boring thursday. drank a lot and the music was nice. nice to see ian and jean dancing to the live band. it's been quite a while since i drank and joined live music (think the last time was at wala wala, which is like months ago)... happy n relaxed!

hangover at work today..totally no mood to work. i'm recalling how much i drank yesterday.

half a pint of heineken at bali thai
standard glass of voldka cranberry at st james
(i think) 2 glasses of moet chandon champagne
2.5 glass of belvedere voldka with mixer

hmm..seems like my alcohol level dropped quite a bit.

i'm drinking plain water and green tea now..

last but not at least: happy childrens' day to all (there's a child in everyone!)

When my boss is not around..

since he's not around, i shall do a little blogging since i havent been updating my blog. work life has been pretty boring so far. i'm constantly trying to make my life more interesting and fufiling by injecting more fun elements into it.

teaching tuition, going for combat deals, meeting friends are some of the little fun things that i have. recently got back from diving trip from tioman! got my advance diving qualification! i'm able to dive up to 30m. whee! night dive wasn't that scary that i thought it would be. think about 1 month ago, i went to petaling jaya for the long weekend. drove down the north-south highway at a whooping speed of 160++km/h is madness. shopping and eating at PJ was very fun as well. especially the tim sum i had in PJ..it's shiok! did a half marathon like 2 weeks back.. so life is pretty exciting week after week.

the next upcoming big thing will be my australia trip! just booked my tickets to australia to visit ck. really excited over it. i will be visiting cairns,melbourne, sydney and brisbane. hopefully it wouldn't be that tiring. it'll be a flying and driving trip.

next up, i'm going to list the stuff that i want to buy in a month's time. i was reading readers' digest, in order to not give in to impluse purchase, you should list down the items that you intent to get. look at the list in a month's time and you may realised that you don't need the item anymore. okay, so here i am listing the stuff that i wanna buy.

1) camera + underwater casing (lost my camera, dumb me)
2) 60L bagpack (just want the orange tatonka that i was eyeing for!)
3) running shoes (my less than 1 month old shoe was stolen!)
4) slippers (for office use, even though i have 2 pairs of it already)
5) dye hair (hair condition is getting better so possible to dye it!)
6) mp3 player (time for a change!)
7) swim suit
8) body balm (love the smell!)

seems like i've got lots to buy.. can't wait for my birthday!

feeling weird to be talking to 2 guys tonight

Now, here am I very bored at my place. There’s basically nothing for me to do except read read and read more. 1.5 months into the job and idling around. I can’t imagine myself working for the next 1.5 year. It’s a pretty desk-bounded job. Definitely for closer friends of mine will know that this isn’t the kindda job I’m looking for. I wanna basked out in the sun with my helmet..Get hot and sweaty..Mix around with foreign labourers. Writing design reports all day long isn’t what I’m looking for.
Day after day, I’m trying to convince myself that I’m learning something new everyday. However, everyday in the office seems to be a chore. Lacking in job satisfaction and challenge is bad…bringing my motivation level down each day.
I seriously wonder how long can I sustain this one..
Another, more noteworthy point is that I’ve signed up as a volunteer with a rather special organization. Hope I’ll get it! At least there’s something interesting for me to look forward to after the end of each day.

havent been blogging for quite awhile. i have started on a new chapter in my life..the working phase of life. student am i no more... so i've decided to note down notable events of my daily life. hopefully i'll perserve and keep on blogging for keepsake memories.

i realized that i haven't been blogging that often on my new blog. i guess coz i'm just too acquaintaned with my old blog and leaving it seemed impossible. oh dear...i'm having feelings for an inanimate object. meanwhile, i think i shall be more proactive and update my blog more regularly.

my boyfriend is like Kia

k. I’m not trying to promote KIA cars here but it’s sort of a comparison of my boyfriend to KIA.
as you know my boyfriend is pretty much a car lover and a huge fan of Mercedes. he could go on and on to rave about the amazing gadgets that Mercedes have. something like the air cons, the leg space..sometimes i get so jealous that i think he loves Mercedes more than me. i onced questioned him to choose between driving in germany’s autobahn and driving a mercedes in singapore. guess what..he chose the latter.
i used to have this perception that korean cars are very much inferior compared to european cars. it’s like korean cars’ quality are just next to china’s production. however, travelling more on a Kia has definitely changed my perception of Kia cars. k, this post is with regards to Kia’s cerato. it has a continental car design and i love the electronic car control system. plus it’s 2L engine is reasonable for singapore roads and i love it’s light steering wheel. it’s like over expectations of a typical korean cars.
to why my boyfriend is a resemblance of Kia, i’ve got this silly analogy. most girls will typical choose a mercedes as their partners. coz they have the money and nice exterior look. more importantly, it’s the branding and status that mercedes carries with them. but i chose a Kia because of it’s economical value and similar quality that it has to a mercedes. what it maybe lacks is it’s branding.
and if you read through straitstimes car of the year 2009, the Kia cerato forte is ranked at 3rd! just a level below the expensive e-class. it’s a no-brainer for e-class to be in the ranking, but for a Kia to be in this ranking means something right?
driving my kia which has a strong engine, continental car design and good steering wheels priced much lower without forgoing on quality. it is why i like him. =)

what am i up to?

oh dear, i haven’t been updating. i guess coz i can’t think of anything interesting to post up. so the big question, what have i been doing?
well…basically school has started and i’m only taking 2 modules plus my slack FYP. you can imagine how free my timetable will be. since i currently only have 2 tuition kid which only takes up my time during the evenings. my day times are basically very free..leaving me with nothing to do. hence, this calls for a job. yeah..recently gotten myself a part time job teaching IT. yes yes..technology. basically robotics, things which i’ve got some experience in but not very good at it though.
so life now revolves around, robotics work, combat, tuition, school and not forgetting my dear. =)

fire rabbit in tiger year

was walking around popular and browse through the predictions of my chinese zodiac for the upcoming tiger year. seems like all is well for the fire rabbit me! initially, i just skimmed through the book to know my outlook for the year. as i read more, i realised that the book’s explanation for the ox year was so true for me. read through more and saw more happy stuff… such as rabbit is compatible with the rat. reading stuff that makes you happy and delighted do make you want to continue to read more.
people are usually like that..read stuff to please themselves. it isn’t a bad thing afterall..whether all these predictions will come true or not. it provides you with a glimpse of hope and a tinge of happiness. moreover, i’m the sort of person whose quite ban tang and gets paranoid over bad luck omen, reading through good outlook for the year ahead sure brightens me up.
i’ve read my predictions for the year, have you read yours?

random poem at night

suddenly thought of this in the middle of the night…
studying is like shitting. you feel so constipated and disgusted.
after you’re done shitting, you graduate and get your toilet paper.
the toilet paper is used to cover your ass..
dang..things that i think at night!

new year's resolution

was looking through the list of resolution that i set for last year… i guess i sort of modified my resolution however achieving the same result. as for this year, with my last semester in school and in turn moving onto the real society will mean alot to me.
simple resolutions for the year
lose weight – i’ve been tipping off the scale by alot eversince i’ve returned back from europe. singapore food isn’t helping at all when it’s much cheaper and more yummy!
improve my cap – thankfully i did good enough for last semester and this semester will mean to maintain it so that my toilet paper looks decent enough to cover my ass
get a decent enough job – kay. this explains much of my great reluctance to enter into the work society. i don’t aspire to get a job that pays good remuneration and having a good reputation. all i need is a job with prospects and lots of training…being a greenhorn into the workforce i need lots of ammunition to survive in the rat race so when i’m armed with more skills, i’m able to better protect myself. haha..sound like i’m out for war. but i’ve heard enough of office politics and hopefully i’ll be able to handle all these nonsense.
travel to a new destination - still contemplating plans for my graduation trip. seeking for khaki to travel and destination to go too. longing to escape from my sheltered home to seek for adventure!
happiness to all my friends and including myself - may all the singles find their true one and all couples last..simply put ‘never allow sadness to haunt you and happiness to follow you’
i’ve make my new year’s resolution, have you made yours?

happy new year and i've shifted blog! to those who want to continue to peek into my inner life. do ask me personally for my new blog address!

a year has past by and what have you done over this year?

i recall whatever i've done this year through my notebook. my notebook which notes down the activities i do and places i've gone to. the tattered and torn book has been through thick and thin with me this year. be it good times or bad times. this year indeed has been a fruitful travelling year whereby i spent 68 days holidaying. when i mean holidaying implies going overseas from eindhoven/singapore and relaxing to have fun. this is a substantial number i supposed.

sep experience...

being away from home does help me put things back in perspective. being away from home made my life much easier..and with the beauty of foreign land get rids of the boredom that i always lament back in singapore. more importantly, i've learnt to take things on stride and do things on my own. not that i'm not independent but i'm more open and daring to just dive into something without much hesitation.

project life in school..

this semester has been so different such that there's a great reduction in examination and increase amount in project work. i've had my fair share of capable and redundant groupmates. the difference in which my grades are assess made me to change the way and style i do things. thankfully everything went well eventually and i'm glad i made through it

working...

i decreased my working load as there's no need for me to earn that much money. this time round, i work for passion and enjoyment rather than for a living. moreover, i've got an increasing job which enables me to know more youngsters. so i guess working isnt a chore afterall but rather a past time for me.

there's much of ups and downs in this year and overall i guess i had a smooth year for me. be it in studying, working or personal relationship life...as i've been mentioning this on various post. i'm a happy girl and truely is... so i guess my main new years resolution will be to have a happier new year!

picking up yourself...

when trouble strikes you, what do you do? avoid it? face it? indulge in endless work so you can forget about the issue and living in self denial. especially so when it comes to matters in heart, you can never stop thinking about it. whereby habits are changed and lifestyle are so different. i think i've come to a solution to it already...

love yourself and treat yourself better. i know whatever i've typed above seems abit incoherent but don't worry. i'm alright. in fact, i think i'm picking myself up day by day and life has improved in leaps.

once again, back from more playing. did a bit of shopping and watching loads of movies...seems like fyp was never on my list. more fun coming ahead...i'm pretty amazed with the amount of energy i have when it comes to playing! p/s: to people from hungary, germany and california. happy hoiidays and did you receive my card???

had too much alcohol le. my liver going to spoil... back from batam and JC class christmas gathering. had loads of fun and looking forward too more! will upload photos soon!meanwhile, merry christmas to all!

photos from kayaking expedition. kayaked from pasir ris to changi.

busy holiday constantly playing...

will upload more photos soon. photos from primary school gathering, odac gathering, grandma's birthday..gathering gathering... non-stop.

p/s: everyone should watch avatar! it's nice...

recently there has been lots of reports regarding to wood's infidelity. that made me thinking whether i'll be able to forgive my spouse over such an dishonest act. i guess when there're kids involved in the marriage, things may be more complicated as the problem spills over to the upbringing of the kid. but what about when there's no children involved? i think i'll be able to forgive him as long as he still likes me and he considers the rest as flings. then again, the act of being dishonest is daunting. not to forget the amount of time we've spent together as a couple, i'm sure i don't want all of these to go to waste. it's never easy to find the eventual "one" for you...why give up something so hard to come by? i'm sure if both parties are willing to go through this difficulty together, their relationship will be brought up to another level and be stronger.

kay...i may be giving this stand of "i'm able to forgive you even you betrayed me". however, things may not be that easy when this applies to myself. this is nothing something trivial and can be got over that easily.. hmm..hmm..

p/s: don't read so much into this post. it's just something random out of my mind. i'm posting entries more often so i can practise my english writing skills, even though they aren't very brillant. ah..this explains why i need to write you see!

helloo guys. sorry that i havent been posting any prpper updates. i guessed i've been busy with playing (especially mahjong) anyway, i promised to do this crazy crow in da house post. below are the peektures from my handphone. havent been taking much photographs lately.

k box with odac people
my sis and i drinking milo trying to calm ourselves and hiding @ the kitchen
find the bird!

see the long feather!
big big crow...

i've been going for various gatherings. working combat (outdoor laser quest) and giving tuition... and trying to do my fyp. so i guess life has been busy and fulfilling. i'm a happy girl! =)

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

For the morning sun in all it's glory,
Meets the day with hope and comfort too,
You fill my life with laughter, somehow you make it better,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

There's a love less defined,
And its yours and its mine,
Like the sun.
And at the end of the day,
We should give thanks and pray,
To the one, to the one.

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.
There's a love less defined,
And its yours and its mine,
Like the sun.
And at the end of the day,
We should give thanks and pray,
To the one, to the one.

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

i guess when forgetting the past memories are near impossible, what you can do is fill them up with current happier events..so much so that these happy memories overflow..then you'll realised that those sadder past memories are so distanced.

i want you to help me fill up my happy memory bank..

*me humming to a song...*

i've got peace like a river..

i've got joy overflowing...

i've got life everlasting...

=)

they always say a day before exam is the most terrible day..i beg to differ! =)

addicted to this happy song!

怎麽这麽奇怪你说甚麽我都high
wo wo ho ho 很奇怪
你忧郁了起来寂寞时的坦白
我依然觉得被你宠爱
深蓝色的天空当你试着放轻松
我也觉得好轻松

你不知道我也有我的烦恼
再见的时候我想要

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做一次就懂
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像邮差呼喊你的挂号信呦!
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再拥抱我

你忧郁了起来寂寞时的坦白
我依然觉得被你宠爱
淡蓝色的笑容当你试着放轻松
我也觉得好轻松

你不知道我也有我的烦恼
再见的时候我想要

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做你一定懂
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像邮差呼喊你的挂号信呦!
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再拥抱

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做不要再害羞
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像队友传来最关键的一球
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾一勾手
变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再燃烧
gogogogo

recurring thoughts...

what happens when you cant sleep and you have these recurring thoughts..

it just strikes you back and stings you. you gladly know you shouldn't be thinking about it butyou just can't help it.

the stupid habit just kicks back in. how can one truly eradicate this addiction? i've yet to found it..i guess when i've cured it then i can move on. you know you're supposed to study and focus but it's during times like this...all these just keeps coming back. ugh...i'm having withdrawal symptom. anyone out there that can help me solve the unsolvable?

writing this entry doesn't seem to solve the problem..

catching up with friends back aboard...

feels much different, as if we've all grown up. moved on..led a better life i guess? things changes, new ties made and some drifted apart. it felt reassuring that everyone is safe and sound. studying, holidaying and experiencing the global community. felt familiar once again to have our usually supper meetings..it's been a year since we've done that! i guess friendship as such has taken on another level whereby distance does changes the amount of commitment towards friendship...and time will change feelings towards each other

anyway, i've more or less short listed 2 places that i'll be going for my grad trip. i've decided to skip going overseas during the dec break to concentrate on my fyp and save up for my grad trip. besides i've got a free batam trip to boast, so effectively i'm having a holiday trip already! wahaha! i need to settle things soon so i can move on quickly when sems 2 kicks in. oh yah! the 2 places are namely United States or China. Whether i can find a friend to accompany me along this journey is one thing. i guess i've pretty much learnt how to be independent, so much so that travelling alone isnt a big fear afterall. jetstar is having this ticket promo to HK which is $67! travel period from 1feb to 31 aug which lies in between my grad trip. shall i fly to HK first, then take a domestic flight to mainland china? i'll save alot on transportation fee! decisions! decisions!

*new updates! oh dear..the promotion has ended coz i was thinking of booking a ticket for myself on my birthday! haha..such impulse! so gone are the plans for a trip to HK!

p/s: i'm typing this entry coz i'm so sick of studying...

"A promise is a transaction between two or more persons whereby the first person undertakes in the future to render some service, gift or assurance to the others or devotes something valuable now and here to his use."

promises are nice thing to be heard..it's like an ideal situation created by both parties..but how often they can be kept. especially so for promises that need to withstand a long time frame. as change is the only constant, how can one ensure that promises will still hold and never been wiped off due to changes in the environment. very often reasons are given to explain the broken agreement but those are just excuses. can there be a form of insurance against broken promises...how much are you willing to trust this promise, how much are you willing to give up or sacrifice to hold on to this promise? it requires lots of commitment, effort and sacrifices to make everything work out..for that i still remain very skeptical and questionable about a promise...

mundane exam life
okay...once again it's back to boring old life of waking up early..then going to school to mug. lunch and dinner in between, wait for library to close. boring life..working in between does spice things up abit. celebrated yf's bday in between this week and worked too... actually nothing fanciful or exciting has happened. somehow, my friends think that my life is really jam packed with activities. however, compared to what i usually have..this period is considered the 'dull period'. haha...i can't wait for exams to end! though there's a pending fyp to clear. arg!

calling out to all my good friends..anyone wanna catch 花木兰 with me? i'm a mulan fan even though i don't really like the mulan actors in this upcoming film. i guess i just like the mulan story..speaks much of a girl going to war, it's so exciting! haha..i know i'm crazy over here but it speaks much of a capabilities of what woman can do. till now i have no idea whether this whole mulan story is real or fictitious, my guess is fake! nevertheless, it sort of inspired me when i was very much younger. girls are very strong creatures afterall... i remembering reading through the mulan story on the chinese textbook over and over again. thinking of it now does make me think that i was so silly! anyone anyone?

walking down the same path..

walking down the same path and yet having a different feeling

the oh so familiar route that was filled with memories...be it good or bad

buildings remained the same but people has changed

those memories of yesterday still lingers and follows..

however walking down the same path again, those thoughts has resurfaced...

the memories were imprinted so deeply that it's hard to erase..

they felt so different,

i cant figure whether it's a different kind of good or different kind of bad..it's just bittersweet

walking down the same path again..forward and ahead

this explains my happiness! btw...my exam isnt over then..but i don't care!

i'm thankful...

i guess when there's nice people around you..life seems to go around easier.

for now..

i'm thankful for good engine friends whom i can have lunch with

i'm thankful for after-school friends whom i can have dinner with

i'm thankful for people who are willing to hear me out whenever i complain or comment

i'm thankful that my projects are all over and that i have more time to study for my exam and do my fyp...

i'm thankful for good and friend lab tech who render help so readily

i'm thankful for having a fun sis to entertain me when i reach home

i'm thankful for being able to have a balanced life with regards to work and play

i'm thankful that i know how to be contented with what i have now...

friends out there...i know i've been a lil crazy recently. i just wanna exclaim out this.

i'm a happy girl! and i wish for happiness to everyone around me!

i've got lots to blog about but totally lack of time! pardon me for this random and short entry! will be back soon!

group dynamics

this semester, i've got to realised that being in a good group do affect greatly your mood, your grades and more importantly your performance. i guess i've been too pampered to take everything for granted such that when i encounter a sucky group, i can't accept it.

i'm thankful for the other 2 wonderful groups that i belong to...they've bought me such joy and pleasure. firstly, my design group member, people whom i've spent time with for the past 3 semester. travelling in europe together, mahjong-ing and tze-cha-ing together, staying up in school till late night trying to fix up our robot..they're really a bunch of fun people to be with and ppl who go through thick and thin.

i'm also 'lucky' to have 1 particularly lousy group, with incompetent group member. people that who cant even explain what they've done up for their slides. such that i have to do everything fo them..tell them off. it was madness. i just couldnt accept this great contrast.

i've learnt the harsh reality of dealing with different kinds of people. anyway, it's over already. this sems, i've learnt more on knowledge of people rather than factual knowledge...

counting my blessings!

friday was a good day. surprisingly won the best presentation, watched a nice movie and had a good box of choc. what more can i ask for..i'm a happy girl.

work on saturday was fun too. i'm so gonna try to zovb some time again soon..in case you guys are wondering what's zovb, peektures below. i was so dizzy after being rolled down the gentle slope. oh yah! i so wanna go marina barrage to fly kites and probably have a picnic too!

here am i writing this post cause i'm unable to sleep. i guess i'm probably still fuming mad about lousy groupmates that i've had. i'm supposed to get over it after lamenting to the whole world how incompetent & lousy they are, i subconsciously havent got over it! humph! despite listening to calming music didn't cool me much further. my stomach is growling for food now, i guess the best treatment would be a big scoop of ice cream to cool me down. meanwhile, writing this post is supposedly to help me cool down as well. ranting....

i'm not going to wake up in time tomorrow! please think of ways to keep me awake tomorrow k? i'm sure there're lots of people who can entertain me well enough. sidenotes! my friend from odac is getting married soon! (you're the first to go off! hehe!) her bf proposed to her recently. i saw her wedding ring as it was posted on fb..i'm so happy for her! =)

was listening to her songs and it reminded me of someone....

happiness doubles, saddness doubles too..

just when you thought you've got it..it leaves you...

wishes never come true...

sidenotes: i'm independent and i'll be independent...

1 month to holiday!!!

mad rush to meet deadlines for reports and presentations...3 reports and 2 presentions..i'm looking for to reading week! whee...

it's the weekends again!

happy halloween to all! had fun with rovers ppl...i think pump room is a good place for party-ing. i had fun too playing golf once again. i'm determined to control the club better! and finally the robot competition is over. great to have my fav tze cha and ice cream with them, not to mention that we had fun bitching too?! (guys sure can bitch better than me)..time to start on report and presentation. sick! more project meetings yet again..even on a sunday! o levels are ending soon which means my income is gonna drop. i need a new student! anyone care to help out?

sidenotes: what does the future lies for us? nice video...

i think my parents do care about me afterall..

my sis was asking for a lift from my dad after her paper..so i chipped in and complained to my dad the day before whether he could fetch me to nuh tomorrow coz my appt is at an absurd time of 8.15am. he should fetch me instead of my sis right? since it's so early and he works around that time...

then onto the next day, i woke up late for my appt (which is very predictable) and off to shower. my mom then told me that my dad will be driving back home to fetch me to nuh later. oh...i'm surprised! on the way, he then asked me stuff about when i'm graduating, what job i'm looking for...stuff that he normally wont even care about. i guess morning lift to school do helps in bonding. at that moment, i do felt that they do care about what the heck i'm up to. oh yah! did i mentioned that he bought breakfast for me too? k..i know this may all sound exaggerating but it's been donkey years since i ate breakfast bought by my parents.

morning happiness.. =) not from boyfriends or friends but parents. i treasure it for today...

i like potato chips....

i like chocolates...

how can i have best of both worlds?

presenting to u this.....

p/s: i really really like royce choc!

i stayed and sleep at home for the longest time posssible. felt good to have the luxury to get surplus of sleep...
even though i still have loads of unfinished projects and reports...i need a break!
not to mention that i bought a whole bag of snacks to munch on..i got the whole new series of pringles...fat fat fat! but happy...
i can't believe that i'm blogging about the slackness i had for today. i guess it's a change from my normal busy routine, thus it's a worthy blog post!

i finally took some time of to watch a movie...the last movie that i watched in the cinemas was the time traveller's wife. it's good to reward myself despite having lots of projects that are uncompleted, but nevertheless, heck it. i need to watch a movie! watched 'julie & julia' and i thought it was really good. came out the way i've expected it to be. the food was yummy and the plot was nice. this simple and light hearted show did cheered me up a bit.

i thoroughly enjoyed this weekend...no more going to school to fix up my robot. no more waking up early for tuitions and getting an opportunity to nua on my bed. reaching home late and sleeping late..

the activities i did during this weekend is balanced as well...equally mixed with work, fun and throwing in some adventure. visited night safari, worked for 2 deals at combat, played golf for 1st time in my life, watched movie, had loads of good food.. playing golf gave me a different view of the sport. it's really mentally draining to concentrate and focus your energy on that little dense ball. in order to use that thin club and swing towards the ball isnt that all easy. i enjoyed it! hope that i'll get to play another game soon. then i can proceed onto become a aspiring tai-tai!

so far, i'm contented with this little bit of fun that offsets my hectic weekday schedule.

more projects and report writing up ahead! i cant wait for my next weekend!

i'm a happy robot! =)

p/s: this is what you get when u have gay guys in your group

more robot in action...

i thank for good lab technicians in school! they're friendly and helpful ppl!

more robot works...stupid lab has no air-con during sundays!

feeling sad...

imagine i was given a lollipop and feeling so sweet..then the next moment, you took my lollipop away...

回到最初。。back to basic

最近都流行粉紫色
最新最潮的都有了
为甚麽富有了甚麽都不缺了
简单的快乐会不见呢

为生活盲目的跑着
为爱情又被伤害了
当所有变复杂变难懂变苦涩
看自己变复杂变自私以后
你流的泪水是不是真的
简单的快乐怎麽不见了

能不能回到最初
最自然最灿烂的笑容
没有钻石的爱情我也会被感动
让自己放空恢复漂亮的脸孔
你吻我一下脸就红

就回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
搬走摩天楼别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的卡通
全都出现在今夜的美梦
全都出现在我今夜的美梦

能不能回到最初
棉花糖在手中的笑容
钻石换不了爱情的心动
让自己放轻松什麽都能想通
说爱你爱我脸就红
回到最初再也梦不到的梦

this song is currently stuck in my head. in life, we are often so caught up with the materialistic stuff that we overlook the simplest things that actually makes us happy.

finally integrating all the components together...less than 2 weeks left, we're very behind schedule due to our sissy PIC board. decided to take videos coz we feel that our robot won't run on that day...sneak preview. will show you our gripper next time round...design 2 is 10 times worst than FYP...

i havent even done my experimental set up for FYP...woohoo!

waking up early...

it's good to break our norm to laze on the bed and get up earlier to breathe in the hot warm morning air...for 3 consecutive days, i've been waking up earlier than usual and start my day off with a cuppa milo.

it's really good to not rush to school and take my own time to stroll down the oh-so-familiar route to the bus stop. it's good that i've got some spare time to flip through the newspaper and ease myself before starting off my hectic day. it's good to even have spare time to check my e-mails and reply to them before i get out of my house. it's good to even have time to blow my hair neatly instead of having messy hair out of the house. it's good to know that i'll have more time of my day since i started my day way early...

so far so good... =)

p/s: i'm thinking of shifting my blog to wordpress, should i change?? i've been so accustomed to this old blog of mine...

k..it's tuesday. the day i'm so not loooking forward. had an early start by waking up earlier than usual. reached to school at 9.35am for a 10am lesson. blogging in my tutorial class before the lesson starts...how i wished that this day will come to an end soon.

i'm so not looking forward to tuesday...and i'm sick of going to school 7 day a week. it's madness...

i so wanna get married again! whenever i see marriage scene, i can really go "awww..." and feels the bliss in it. i know i sounds very bimbotic here, but come on...who doesnt enjoy seeing people getting married? i enjoy attending wedding ceremonies as well...so looking forward to see my friends getting married! =)

p/s: i still want a hello kitty mj set. meow meow.. (i sound really bimbotic now)

lots on hand and doing nothing! needs lots of motivation...so far i've been keeping a good habit of sleeping early. at 2am...whee!!! which is much earlier compared to my usual bed time.

家好月圆 is super addictive..and it's absurdly long too. taking up far too much time...

stupid stupid robot...BAH!

was eating pukka ice cream one day, it wasn't good even with the promotion they're offering. (free mixed in on Tuesday) i'm going to boycott the place..walked back to school and i chanced upon a shop selling hello kitty mahjong set! it's chio can... i feel the girly me evolving out. haha..

i want a hello kitty mahjong set!

p/s: i'm seriously considering getting that pink mahjong set, does it have a hello kitty table to complement it???

anyway, if you guys are wondering what modules i'm taking this sems..

it's basically my specialization TEs, petroleum geoscience, fyp and design 2. though it's only 4 modules but i think this semester is super crazy...semester workload heavy kind! i miss exams....

i'm a bad girl... =(

i'm starting to become silly once again. need some advice...please help!

took a lil time off the midst of chionging my report + studying for my mid term test...

yes, the whole world doesnt have mid term test except the loser me.

to top that up, i've got 1 more 50% group project, 1 more 24% group project, 1 more 10% individual report, 1 more 12% 500 word essay to write, 1 stupid robot to handle( i've yet to write my servo motor programme) lastly, a fyp which i have not even started yet! i hope the meeting won't be any time soon...

i need a life...can someone please help me out. the rocks, stones, paleogeography, lithography blah blah is driving me crazy.

i wanna exercise but i've got no time! i know this is a lousy excuse, but when you realised that you can only manage 5-6hrs of sleep a day, exercising has become a luxury.

finally, happy children's day to all of you! bring out the kid in you! we're all young at hearts you know...

i wanna get married immediately!

was watching fann and chris wedding and i can sincerely felt the love in the air..it's soooo sweet can? oh dear, my plan to get married young is way behind schedule..

can someone just give me a random guy now? hehe...

p/s: i'm so screwed this semester..i seriously need more time! 24hrs aint enough!!!

i just need some attention...not negligence...

永远的朋友。。。

如果你很忙
我到街上去晃一晃
身为一个朋友
有些事情不该勉强
看你黑着眼圈
今晚很长我睡不着
到底是谁 害你这么想
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给 你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给 你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
我总是有让你想出声的方法
我却没有让自己离开的力量
也许友情才能地久天长
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
我只是朋友

despite being busy with my sickening term paper...i feel that i should write an entry to thank my friends who helped me out with programming the robot. their help really saved me lots of trouble..

i won't want to forget the moments and their effort in helping me configuring the robot..

friends like them don't mind spending hours sitting in front of the dumb IDE and figuring what's wrong with either the compiler or my programme. they even go to the extend to read up manuals and send me mails to give me and my group ideas to solve our problem.

our group has been having lots of trouble with the PIC chip. we're all noobs at this and when we received it on hand, it's already spoilt! we kept wondering that our programmes had problems but it was the freaking board.

then again, more problems came by...this time it was the lousy compiler!

really wanna thank those who came down to school earlier..and readily helped me out! sc, azp, ky..you guys know who you are. (even though you guys won't be readin my blog) cf was even asking me this in school, "how come you have such good friends?" haha...i'm just lucky i guess. =)

i don't like this date...

i need someone to give me some motivation to do my work..working alone suck.

*pulls her hair out*

this semester is quite screwed up. i havent found a group for my specialization study module. i've yet to start on my 30 over paged term paper. i've not even started on my FYP.

seriously, what the heck am i doing? can someone please tell me to stop eating and start working.

if you're my friend out there, please remind me!

i forgot that today is a holiday! (coz everyday seems like a holiday to me!)

There are two ways to slide easily through life; to believe everything or to doubt everything. Both ways save us from thinking.

few days ago i was having kopi session with hx then we were discussing about family issues. honestly, i felt that my relationship with my family has been deteriorating. i hardly have dinner at home and the only times whereby i'm at home is either when i'm having tuition or sleeping. i've been complaining to hx that my parents don't care about me at all. a very good example is that they didn't send me off for my SEP and i came back from the airport alone after my SEP. upon my arrival back from the netherlands, i didn't have any fanciful sg dinner with my family. i did all my unpacking alone. another example to 'boast' is that they don't care about my whereabouts. even so whereby i can be missing from home for about 2-3 days and they never call me to ask where i am...i'm grateful for the amount of freedom i get but sometimes i do wonder that they even remember that i'm their daughter at times.
times when i'm back home, all i can remember is that them nagging at me for not keeping the iron board properly after iron. i cant recall when was the last time i was being praised by them. all i can vividly remember is that i have to do the housework..mopping and vaccuming the floor. changing my own bedsheets etc.. i felt more like a maid.
hx explained profusely to me that this is the way my parents love me and he adviced me to accompany my parents more often. sometimes, i do not even know what to say to them coz they didnt even bother finding out what the heck am i up to. thank god they have a sensible daughter that so far hasnt gone astray.
at MPS today, saw many cases about parental issues then i realised that i do have a good family afterall. more importantly, i'm thankful that my parents sponsored abit for my SEP trip and my mom paid abit for my braces.. they spent their hard earned money on me rather them on themselves. i would never understand or know the sacrifices they made for me but i'm starting to appreciate it. for that, i'd like to pay it forward, be it to my future kids or even my friends around me...as life is a one way ticket, only ahead and no returning back.

i choose to know lesser, think lesser..
being ignorant and dumb is blissful..
just give me my ice cream and i hope that sweetness lasts and temporary numbs my mind...

before

after..me with ice cream again! this time in sg..and i'm still having 2 scoops!

why am i trying to fill up my empty spaces in life that i leave so little time for myself? sometimes i really wonder..but...whenever i look back and realised that i managed to squeeze in so much stuff into my schedule, i'm amazed and yet questioning myself why the heck am i doing all this. should i take a step back and reflect upon myself...
what do i actually want?

A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance.

how you act doesnt equates to what you think... i think i've got a screwed up life now. i need to steer towards the correct direction...

i feel that i'm a bitch..seriously. u have no idea what a heck of person am i...

it's just only the start of school term but i'm already thinking of mid sems break. was supposed to go for my advanced diving but i think it's no longer feasible due to my faulty nose. if i really go under the knife, i won't be able to dive for 3 months. ah..shall not risk it coz it's really sensitive now. so now i'm thinking of organizing a trekking trip during mid sems break. where shall i go this time round? i wanna have a wild adventure once again.

sidenotes: i need a dessert/ice cream khaki!

happy birthday sg! there's no place to be other than home...leaving sg for 5 months is good enough for me to realise how good sg is. watched ndp at one fullerton. the fireworks was fantastic but this year's parade really very budget. think the fireworks lasted less than 5 min. moreover, there's no fireworks festival to boot. boo! i like fireworks lor...especially the golden shower of rain which covers the sky in total gold. to celebrate national day..i'll post some lame sg utube vids! enjoy! i very much like sg!





since there's MJ craze too...

i've been sleeping at 4am and waking up at 8.30am..this is crappy sleep! i wanna kill myself.

sidenotes: i learnt to play powergrid! i think it's really fun! (partly coz i won too!) good to finally find frenz to play boardgames with. too bad year 4 i'm going to be a loner coz we're all taking different modules. hopefully we can meet up more often for boardgaming sessions!

sidesidenotes: i wanna watch "up", "g-force" and "gi-joe".. those whom know me well enough would know that i very much enjy watching cartoons.

i'm tired..but i cant sleep! crap...that explains my lousy blog entry

dear all,

anyone has good ear,nose,throat specialist to intro? my sinus is giving me hell of a headache and i need to cure it really soon...it's too overwhelming..

need to invent something!

i always silently complain as to why my grandma uses a matchstick to light up the stove when there's a lighter right beside the stove. you know, the spark ignition kind whereby you use to light up your bunsen burner. i couldnt take it anymore today as i was mopping the floor of my kitchen and saw her using the match stick. i went up to her with the lighter and taught her how to use it. kay..it really took a long time for her to realise where to actually exert the force but then i soon realise that her hands arent strong enough to pull the trigger. to us, it may seemed like an effortless task, but i didnt realised that she wasnt capable of doing that with her fingers. old folks joints are really weak..i must find a lighter that doesnt require so much force. maybe those press the button kind..

anyway, i think i didnt catch the swine flu (phew) the temporary fever went off however the flu still lingers..i'm still a lil apprehensive about it.
sidenotes: i realised i've not been taking photos that often in sg already. need to be more proactive about it. i've been meeting up with friends and such..but no photos..boo! no wonder i dont feel like updating my blog about what exactly i've been up to.