Day 3 — Your parents

K..Sensitive topic. My parents are people whom I'll tell everyone that they don't care about me. However, everyone around me tells me that they give me lots of autonomy. I guess it's due to my upbringing when I was very young. At a tender age of primary 3 I took a mrt train alone, all the way from Bukit Batok to Novena station. I was taught to be independent and do things on my own. Had to wash my own shoes, wash my plates after eating my dinner, iron my clothes. Even had to do housework at times and i dread it.
Financially, i handled it upon myself too. I try not to ask money from my parents as I'm pretty shy about it. I took whatever my parents gave me and topped up on my own if i felt that i needed more. Ever since after A levels, I stopped taking pocket money from my parents. I believed that I'm capable of providing for myself through part time work.
My parents took the effort to speak english and chinese to me. My mom realised that it's important to know both languages and realised that I don't speak enough chinese. Thus, i speak to my dad in Chinese and my mother in English. It turned out that eventually i became more well versed in Chinese than in English. That I've got to attribute it to Channel 8 tv shows. As for my lousy English, I attribute to my my mom's broken English (and my lacklustre effort in trying to improve it).
The biggest thing that I'm grateful towards my parents is that they give me full autonomy in whatever I do. No curfews, no limits. I make every single decision by myself. Next thing will be that they help me with washing of my clothes and cooking of dinner at times, it's important k! I've loads of things to do and this help me take a little time off so I can indulge in tv watching.

Day 2 — Your Crush

Crushes are people whom you fantasied to be with be usually won't worked out with. So I don't consider my boyfriends, be it old or current one, crushes. I remember having crushes during my secondary school daze whereby bgr in my school was quite an "in" thing. It's nice to have a very good boy friend to have out after school and gather 'awss' from your classmates. However, I consider those a fantasy. I remember writing a journal entry for my crushes. Reading back then, i seemed to be quite serious over them! Really amusing! I think the most recent crush I had was before my current boyfriend. Hence, it's during my uni days. I guess I had a pretty good impression of this guy but I pretty much know that we won't end up together. Yah, we didn't even get close even though we see each other quite often. It didn't lasted very long because I more pre-occupied with other stuff rather than thinking about him. Crushes aren't meant to be serious anyway.. Thanks to all these guys who gave me pretty impressions!

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Kay..this first letter is rather dumb and self explanatory. Yet again, I guess friends definitely need some form of recognition for their good efforts right? Haha. Those who knows me well enough should know that I've got 3 good friends. Drats, feeling so weird to spell out their names. Becca, Man Jun and Ziqi named in alphabetical order and in no accordance of favourisms towards anyone of them. For Bec, we first met each other during our primary school days already. She's my fellow Chinese tuition mate. Yes, you're not reading it wrongly, I used to have Chinese tuition. Hmm..but it's weird, I don't remember my Chinese being that bad. As for Zq, got to know her from sec 1 onwards. That girl with the zuai look..Lastly will be Man Jun, got to know her during leadership training camp. She was in the same group as me and both of us clicked really well. Then on, i introduced her to our gang. Seems like from secondary onwards, the 3 of us just stuck together. The main bonding that initially bec,zq and i had was npcc. We're known as the powerpuff girls. Yes, i know it's damn childish but come on' it's the name given by our seniors. It's a pretty awesome name because we're really strong girls who could do almost anything and even better than the guys. Not that I'm trying to exaggerate or anything but it's true! I guess our independent and sporty vibes in us just clicks. Even though we didn't go on to the same jc or poly, we make an effort to try to meet up regularly and update each other. It's quite surprising that we can just pour out our nonsense depsite not meeting for a long time. We just want to share our thoughts and experience with one another. Counting back from secondary 1 till now, it's been 10 years of friendship and cheers to further 10 years on. Now that we've all graduated from school (except bec who will be graduating at the end of year), and moved on to the working society. I guess the next phase of our life will be career, marriage and so on so for. Cheers to 10 years of friendship!

super old photo, when we were super young..

30 letters..

I read this on my friend's blog then i thought it'll be good to start this letter writing thing myself as well. I thought that it'll be good to pen down these memories and read them again probably 10 years later. Laughing at all the foolish things that i've typed. Then again, all these silly writing are part and parcel of my growing up process. Though it says a letter a day, but think i'll try to speed things up. If anyone is reading my blog still...enjoy and grow with me!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Holidays of 2010..

Since the year will be ending soon, though it's only october! i shall count the number of days whereby i'm overseas. I vividly remember counting my holidays last year as well, though this year will pale in comparision, but nevertheless, some holidays are better than none!

First up, new year, Malacca trip, 1 day, eve and the eve of eve don't count at year 2010. Guys who know me that i haven't been celebrating new years in Singapore. I remembered the first time spending new year overseas was during year 1, 19 year old at a Kelong in Sibu island. Hence, i haven't been spending new years in singapore for 4 years already. Sticking closely to this weird habit of mine, i insist on going overseas during new year period even though holidaying at this period will be at cut throat prices. Next, going to Malacca again, but with a different group of people, 3 days. New country, Cambodia! 19 days added. Following up, batam 1 day. Then on, Petaling Jaya, Malaysia for 3 days. My latest trip, diving at Tioman for 3 days. If I'm heading somewhere again during Deepavali holiday, it'll be another 3 days (not tabulated in my holiday list). Lastly will be my trip to Australia, so excited about it! Adding another 12 days to it. My actual aussie trip will be longer, but remember i'm only counting my holidays for year 2010. In total, I've got 42 days of holiday! Whee...Think it's a feat despite my tight financial ability.

Next year's holidays will be considerably less, unless my company decided me to send me overseas of which i seriously doubt so! I will not hesitate to clear all the 18 days of leave that I'm granted of! Most importantly, i must go trek at a new place. I haven't trekked at any new mountains or hills this year, utterly disappointed! However, this year seemed to be a diving year for me. I shall go up and higher next year!

Sheesh, my post is damn childish, can't take it or the singlish way of saying, 'buay tahan'.

How much sleep do you need?

Can't believe that i slept at about 10.30pm yesterday night! I must be really tired from inhaling all the smog from Sumatra. I guess my sleeping habits have been rather consistent. I wake up at 6.20am and sleep at about 12am latest. If it's friday, I'll tend to sleep slightly later but if i've got a deal early tomorrow, i'll still sleep much later. Coz it's friday! Hah! Anyway, i read a report that sleeping too little will cause weight gain. So it's time to get more sleep! 7hours at least! Let's work towards my aim of slimming down. Seems like all my running isn't helping. Another noteworthy point, why doesn't my company allow napping in office! It's 45 more min to end of work. Slack day today as garmen will be on long leave tomorrow onwards. Happy happy.

Last point to note, it's my piggy sister's birthday today. 20/10/2010 good for her. Anyway, Happy Birthday and hope you'll grow taller. (Even though I know it's quite unattainable, nonetheless, a wish with very good intentions!)

Life's been pretty good so far....

other than the fact that i got quite sick recently. being sick = cannot excercise = become fat. i'm recovering quite well already so it's time for more jogging!
other than the fact that KIA cerato is changed to Honda city. the brake paddle is much more stiff and the idling engine is much noiser! hmm...should we change to Mitshubishi lancer instead? Decisions decisions...
other than the fact that work is rather boring. however, i'm pretty much enjoying the much time i have to surf online and to even blog.
other than the fact that one of my kid has decided to temporary stop tuition coz it's the holidays...no student = no extra income
other than the fact that i lost money in mahjong and became the biggest loser. initially was the biggest winner, then turned loser. gosh.

otherwise, life's been pretty good so far...

Meeting Expectations

Sometimes when you gives this amount of attention to this person and you do hope that the person is able to return you with the equal amount of it, or maybe surpassing it. However, we all know that this won't occur. Using the conservation of energy law, all energy in a system has to be conserved, no energy can be created or destroyed. However, we also know that some form of energy may be lost to the surrounding, example to friction, heat, sound etc. I guess this works the same in life as well. When you put in this amount of effort into your work, hoping in turn that you'll do well, have a good future blah blah. But money, peers, indugles, tempetations are the factors that drain away the effort that you're putting in.

The thing is that people or perharps yourself have expectations on oneself, in order to meet these expectations, you gonna put in some efforts. And as of what I've mentioned above, that energy will be drained away due to several factors, we need to give in more effort. Some people lament that to avoid disspointment is to expect less, i beg to differ. Why can't just someone put in more effort?

Listening this song brings back fond memories..

卢广仲 - Nice To Meet You

我就在淡水河的旁边
我看着太阳慢慢不见
每天一到了这个时候
我会在回家的公车上面

就快要爱上了淡水
除了雨下不停的冬天
不管未来会在哪一边 都还是会想念

不能忘记的有大一开学的那天
还有一起去过的海边
你说人生要疯狂几遍
我都懂 只是习惯比较早点睡
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

我还在淡水河的旁边
这里的风景有些改变
但我还是沿着河边走
才发现我们认识那么久

天知道我有多爱淡水
除了雨下不停的冬天
不管未来会在哪一边 都还是会想念

不能忘记的有遇见你的那一天
还有熬夜到天亮的冒险
人生就是要疯狂几遍
我都懂 但是能不能健康一点
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

不能忘记的有大一开学的那天
还有一起去过的海边
你说人生要疯狂几遍
我都懂 只是习惯比较早睡~
绕着操场一圈圈 时间过了一年又一年
我要忍着眼泪的说 很高兴能认识你yeah
我最亲爱亲爱的同学

时间能不能永远停在 这边

I wonder..

i wonder sometimes why do i like to pack up my schedule. i guess i'm just kiasu, wanna do everything and anything.

anyway, on a random note, me and xl is helping my colleague with courting a girl. so we are always advising him stuff on r/s issues. it's quite fun to bitch about such stuff and fancy my 30 year old colleague blushing whenever we talks about his girl. in fact, i would highly recommend any girl to my fellow colleague coz i really thinks that he'll make a good boyfriend and husband! he's patient, meticulous, soft spoken and yet a little lame. i think if he was in better health, all the girls will be queuing a line to him. talking on about this, we'd give suggestions on presents to buy for the girl (her birthday is approaching). he was making a card for her! how sweet is that! i totally like guys who puts efforts into making gifts for someone. sometime we would also discuss about marriage proposal and plans...blah. hmm..i think i've got fetish for soft-spoken guys! hee....

人身有多少十年？

工作了三个月已足以让我领悟到许多。。我的下一步该往哪走呢？既然我还很年轻，我因该去闯一闯。还是这只是一时冲动的想法呢？我通常是个很果断的人，这次真的让我很懊恼。还是走一步看一步吧。

i need someone who likes me more than he likes himself.

A day without boss 2 + happy children's day!

boss isn't around today so i happily whizzed into the office late. with a bad hangover from yesterday. was quite glad that i didn't drink more, else think it'd be worst. not forgetting i've got tuition after work today as well!

surfed net whole day coz boss isn't around. nothing much to do also.
ended work yesterday at 5pm and went to meet dolph for dinner at alexandar. dinned at bali thai, ambience was nice but the natural atmosphere gave rised to lots of mozzie. the food wasn't that fantastic as well. i think thai express was better. later on, went to st james' bellini room to celebrate ian's birthday. utterly glad that it was happy hour on a boring thursday. drank a lot and the music was nice. nice to see ian and jean dancing to the live band. it's been quite a while since i drank and joined live music (think the last time was at wala wala, which is like months ago)... happy n relaxed!

hangover at work today..totally no mood to work. i'm recalling how much i drank yesterday.

half a pint of heineken at bali thai
standard glass of voldka cranberry at st james
(i think) 2 glasses of moet chandon champagne
2.5 glass of belvedere voldka with mixer

hmm..seems like my alcohol level dropped quite a bit.

i'm drinking plain water and green tea now..

last but not at least: happy childrens' day to all (there's a child in everyone!)