picking up yourself...

when trouble strikes you, what do you do? avoid it? face it? indulge in endless work so you can forget about the issue and living in self denial. especially so when it comes to matters in heart, you can never stop thinking about it. whereby habits are changed and lifestyle are so different. i think i've come to a solution to it already...

love yourself and treat yourself better. i know whatever i've typed above seems abit incoherent but don't worry. i'm alright. in fact, i think i'm picking myself up day by day and life has improved in leaps.

once again, back from more playing. did a bit of shopping and watching loads of movies...seems like fyp was never on my list. more fun coming ahead...i'm pretty amazed with the amount of energy i have when it comes to playing! p/s: to people from hungary, germany and california. happy hoiidays and did you receive my card???

had too much alcohol le. my liver going to spoil... back from batam and JC class christmas gathering. had loads of fun and looking forward too more! will upload photos soon!meanwhile, merry christmas to all!

photos from kayaking expedition. kayaked from pasir ris to changi.

busy holiday constantly playing...

will upload more photos soon. photos from primary school gathering, odac gathering, grandma's birthday..gathering gathering... non-stop.

p/s: everyone should watch avatar! it's nice...

recently there has been lots of reports regarding to wood's infidelity. that made me thinking whether i'll be able to forgive my spouse over such an dishonest act. i guess when there're kids involved in the marriage, things may be more complicated as the problem spills over to the upbringing of the kid. but what about when there's no children involved? i think i'll be able to forgive him as long as he still likes me and he considers the rest as flings. then again, the act of being dishonest is daunting. not to forget the amount of time we've spent together as a couple, i'm sure i don't want all of these to go to waste. it's never easy to find the eventual "one" for you...why give up something so hard to come by? i'm sure if both parties are willing to go through this difficulty together, their relationship will be brought up to another level and be stronger.

kay...i may be giving this stand of "i'm able to forgive you even you betrayed me". however, things may not be that easy when this applies to myself. this is nothing something trivial and can be got over that easily.. hmm..hmm..

p/s: don't read so much into this post. it's just something random out of my mind. i'm posting entries more often so i can practise my english writing skills, even though they aren't very brillant. ah..this explains why i need to write you see!

helloo guys. sorry that i havent been posting any prpper updates. i guessed i've been busy with playing (especially mahjong) anyway, i promised to do this crazy crow in da house post. below are the peektures from my handphone. havent been taking much photographs lately.

k box with odac people
my sis and i drinking milo trying to calm ourselves and hiding @ the kitchen
find the bird!

see the long feather!
big big crow...

i've been going for various gatherings. working combat (outdoor laser quest) and giving tuition... and trying to do my fyp. so i guess life has been busy and fulfilling. i'm a happy girl! =)

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

For the morning sun in all it's glory,
Meets the day with hope and comfort too,
You fill my life with laughter, somehow you make it better,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

There's a love less defined,
And its yours and its mine,
Like the sun.
And at the end of the day,
We should give thanks and pray,
To the one, to the one.

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.
There's a love less defined,
And its yours and its mine,
Like the sun.
And at the end of the day,
We should give thanks and pray,
To the one, to the one.

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Have I told you there's no one else above you?
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

Take away all my sadness, fill my life with gladness,
Ease my troubles, that's what you do.

i guess when forgetting the past memories are near impossible, what you can do is fill them up with current happier events..so much so that these happy memories overflow..then you'll realised that those sadder past memories are so distanced.

i want you to help me fill up my happy memory bank..

*me humming to a song...*

i've got peace like a river..

i've got joy overflowing...

i've got life everlasting...

=)

they always say a day before exam is the most terrible day..i beg to differ! =)

addicted to this happy song!

怎麽这麽奇怪你说甚麽我都high
wo wo ho ho 很奇怪
你忧郁了起来寂寞时的坦白
我依然觉得被你宠爱
深蓝色的天空当你试着放轻松
我也觉得好轻松

你不知道我也有我的烦恼
再见的时候我想要

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做一次就懂
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像邮差呼喊你的挂号信呦!
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再拥抱我

你忧郁了起来寂寞时的坦白
我依然觉得被你宠爱
淡蓝色的笑容当你试着放轻松
我也觉得好轻松

你不知道我也有我的烦恼
再见的时候我想要

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做你一定懂
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像邮差呼喊你的挂号信呦!
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再拥抱

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做不要再害羞
看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像队友传来最关键的一球
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾一勾手
变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再燃烧
gogogogo

recurring thoughts...

what happens when you cant sleep and you have these recurring thoughts..

it just strikes you back and stings you. you gladly know you shouldn't be thinking about it butyou just can't help it.

the stupid habit just kicks back in. how can one truly eradicate this addiction? i've yet to found it..i guess when i've cured it then i can move on. you know you're supposed to study and focus but it's during times like this...all these just keeps coming back. ugh...i'm having withdrawal symptom. anyone out there that can help me solve the unsolvable?

writing this entry doesn't seem to solve the problem..

catching up with friends back aboard...

feels much different, as if we've all grown up. moved on..led a better life i guess? things changes, new ties made and some drifted apart. it felt reassuring that everyone is safe and sound. studying, holidaying and experiencing the global community. felt familiar once again to have our usually supper meetings..it's been a year since we've done that! i guess friendship as such has taken on another level whereby distance does changes the amount of commitment towards friendship...and time will change feelings towards each other

anyway, i've more or less short listed 2 places that i'll be going for my grad trip. i've decided to skip going overseas during the dec break to concentrate on my fyp and save up for my grad trip. besides i've got a free batam trip to boast, so effectively i'm having a holiday trip already! wahaha! i need to settle things soon so i can move on quickly when sems 2 kicks in. oh yah! the 2 places are namely United States or China. Whether i can find a friend to accompany me along this journey is one thing. i guess i've pretty much learnt how to be independent, so much so that travelling alone isnt a big fear afterall. jetstar is having this ticket promo to HK which is $67! travel period from 1feb to 31 aug which lies in between my grad trip. shall i fly to HK first, then take a domestic flight to mainland china? i'll save alot on transportation fee! decisions! decisions!

*new updates! oh dear..the promotion has ended coz i was thinking of booking a ticket for myself on my birthday! haha..such impulse! so gone are the plans for a trip to HK!

p/s: i'm typing this entry coz i'm so sick of studying...

"A promise is a transaction between two or more persons whereby the first person undertakes in the future to render some service, gift or assurance to the others or devotes something valuable now and here to his use."

promises are nice thing to be heard..it's like an ideal situation created by both parties..but how often they can be kept. especially so for promises that need to withstand a long time frame. as change is the only constant, how can one ensure that promises will still hold and never been wiped off due to changes in the environment. very often reasons are given to explain the broken agreement but those are just excuses. can there be a form of insurance against broken promises...how much are you willing to trust this promise, how much are you willing to give up or sacrifice to hold on to this promise? it requires lots of commitment, effort and sacrifices to make everything work out..for that i still remain very skeptical and questionable about a promise...

mundane exam life
okay...once again it's back to boring old life of waking up early..then going to school to mug. lunch and dinner in between, wait for library to close. boring life..working in between does spice things up abit. celebrated yf's bday in between this week and worked too... actually nothing fanciful or exciting has happened. somehow, my friends think that my life is really jam packed with activities. however, compared to what i usually have..this period is considered the 'dull period'. haha...i can't wait for exams to end! though there's a pending fyp to clear. arg!

calling out to all my good friends..anyone wanna catch 花木兰 with me? i'm a mulan fan even though i don't really like the mulan actors in this upcoming film. i guess i just like the mulan story..speaks much of a girl going to war, it's so exciting! haha..i know i'm crazy over here but it speaks much of a capabilities of what woman can do. till now i have no idea whether this whole mulan story is real or fictitious, my guess is fake! nevertheless, it sort of inspired me when i was very much younger. girls are very strong creatures afterall... i remembering reading through the mulan story on the chinese textbook over and over again. thinking of it now does make me think that i was so silly! anyone anyone?

walking down the same path..

walking down the same path and yet having a different feeling

the oh so familiar route that was filled with memories...be it good or bad

buildings remained the same but people has changed

those memories of yesterday still lingers and follows..

however walking down the same path again, those thoughts has resurfaced...

the memories were imprinted so deeply that it's hard to erase..

they felt so different,

i cant figure whether it's a different kind of good or different kind of bad..it's just bittersweet

walking down the same path again..forward and ahead

this explains my happiness! btw...my exam isnt over then..but i don't care!

i'm thankful...

i guess when there's nice people around you..life seems to go around easier.

for now..

i'm thankful for good engine friends whom i can have lunch with

i'm thankful for after-school friends whom i can have dinner with

i'm thankful for people who are willing to hear me out whenever i complain or comment

i'm thankful that my projects are all over and that i have more time to study for my exam and do my fyp...

i'm thankful for good and friend lab tech who render help so readily

i'm thankful for having a fun sis to entertain me when i reach home

i'm thankful for being able to have a balanced life with regards to work and play

i'm thankful that i know how to be contented with what i have now...

friends out there...i know i've been a lil crazy recently. i just wanna exclaim out this.

i'm a happy girl! and i wish for happiness to everyone around me!

i've got lots to blog about but totally lack of time! pardon me for this random and short entry! will be back soon!

group dynamics

this semester, i've got to realised that being in a good group do affect greatly your mood, your grades and more importantly your performance. i guess i've been too pampered to take everything for granted such that when i encounter a sucky group, i can't accept it.

i'm thankful for the other 2 wonderful groups that i belong to...they've bought me such joy and pleasure. firstly, my design group member, people whom i've spent time with for the past 3 semester. travelling in europe together, mahjong-ing and tze-cha-ing together, staying up in school till late night trying to fix up our robot..they're really a bunch of fun people to be with and ppl who go through thick and thin.

i'm also 'lucky' to have 1 particularly lousy group, with incompetent group member. people that who cant even explain what they've done up for their slides. such that i have to do everything fo them..tell them off. it was madness. i just couldnt accept this great contrast.

i've learnt the harsh reality of dealing with different kinds of people. anyway, it's over already. this sems, i've learnt more on knowledge of people rather than factual knowledge...

counting my blessings!

friday was a good day. surprisingly won the best presentation, watched a nice movie and had a good box of choc. what more can i ask for..i'm a happy girl.

work on saturday was fun too. i'm so gonna try to zovb some time again soon..in case you guys are wondering what's zovb, peektures below. i was so dizzy after being rolled down the gentle slope. oh yah! i so wanna go marina barrage to fly kites and probably have a picnic too!

here am i writing this post cause i'm unable to sleep. i guess i'm probably still fuming mad about lousy groupmates that i've had. i'm supposed to get over it after lamenting to the whole world how incompetent & lousy they are, i subconsciously havent got over it! humph! despite listening to calming music didn't cool me much further. my stomach is growling for food now, i guess the best treatment would be a big scoop of ice cream to cool me down. meanwhile, writing this post is supposedly to help me cool down as well. ranting....

i'm not going to wake up in time tomorrow! please think of ways to keep me awake tomorrow k? i'm sure there're lots of people who can entertain me well enough. sidenotes! my friend from odac is getting married soon! (you're the first to go off! hehe!) her bf proposed to her recently. i saw her wedding ring as it was posted on fb..i'm so happy for her! =)

was listening to her songs and it reminded me of someone....

happiness doubles, saddness doubles too..

just when you thought you've got it..it leaves you...

wishes never come true...

sidenotes: i'm independent and i'll be independent...

1 month to holiday!!!

mad rush to meet deadlines for reports and presentations...3 reports and 2 presentions..i'm looking for to reading week! whee...

it's the weekends again!

happy halloween to all! had fun with rovers ppl...i think pump room is a good place for party-ing. i had fun too playing golf once again. i'm determined to control the club better! and finally the robot competition is over. great to have my fav tze cha and ice cream with them, not to mention that we had fun bitching too?! (guys sure can bitch better than me)..time to start on report and presentation. sick! more project meetings yet again..even on a sunday! o levels are ending soon which means my income is gonna drop. i need a new student! anyone care to help out?

sidenotes: what does the future lies for us? nice video...

i think my parents do care about me afterall..

my sis was asking for a lift from my dad after her paper..so i chipped in and complained to my dad the day before whether he could fetch me to nuh tomorrow coz my appt is at an absurd time of 8.15am. he should fetch me instead of my sis right? since it's so early and he works around that time...

then onto the next day, i woke up late for my appt (which is very predictable) and off to shower. my mom then told me that my dad will be driving back home to fetch me to nuh later. oh...i'm surprised! on the way, he then asked me stuff about when i'm graduating, what job i'm looking for...stuff that he normally wont even care about. i guess morning lift to school do helps in bonding. at that moment, i do felt that they do care about what the heck i'm up to. oh yah! did i mentioned that he bought breakfast for me too? k..i know this may all sound exaggerating but it's been donkey years since i ate breakfast bought by my parents.

morning happiness.. =) not from boyfriends or friends but parents. i treasure it for today...

i like potato chips....

i like chocolates...

how can i have best of both worlds?

presenting to u this.....

p/s: i really really like royce choc!

i stayed and sleep at home for the longest time posssible. felt good to have the luxury to get surplus of sleep...
even though i still have loads of unfinished projects and reports...i need a break!
not to mention that i bought a whole bag of snacks to munch on..i got the whole new series of pringles...fat fat fat! but happy...
i can't believe that i'm blogging about the slackness i had for today. i guess it's a change from my normal busy routine, thus it's a worthy blog post!

i finally took some time of to watch a movie...the last movie that i watched in the cinemas was the time traveller's wife. it's good to reward myself despite having lots of projects that are uncompleted, but nevertheless, heck it. i need to watch a movie! watched 'julie & julia' and i thought it was really good. came out the way i've expected it to be. the food was yummy and the plot was nice. this simple and light hearted show did cheered me up a bit.

i thoroughly enjoyed this weekend...no more going to school to fix up my robot. no more waking up early for tuitions and getting an opportunity to nua on my bed. reaching home late and sleeping late..

the activities i did during this weekend is balanced as well...equally mixed with work, fun and throwing in some adventure. visited night safari, worked for 2 deals at combat, played golf for 1st time in my life, watched movie, had loads of good food.. playing golf gave me a different view of the sport. it's really mentally draining to concentrate and focus your energy on that little dense ball. in order to use that thin club and swing towards the ball isnt that all easy. i enjoyed it! hope that i'll get to play another game soon. then i can proceed onto become a aspiring tai-tai!

so far, i'm contented with this little bit of fun that offsets my hectic weekday schedule.

more projects and report writing up ahead! i cant wait for my next weekend!

i'm a happy robot! =)

p/s: this is what you get when u have gay guys in your group

more robot in action...

i thank for good lab technicians in school! they're friendly and helpful ppl!

more robot works...stupid lab has no air-con during sundays!

feeling sad...

imagine i was given a lollipop and feeling so sweet..then the next moment, you took my lollipop away...

回到最初。。back to basic

最近都流行粉紫色
最新最潮的都有了
为甚麽富有了甚麽都不缺了
简单的快乐会不见呢

为生活盲目的跑着
为爱情又被伤害了
当所有变复杂变难懂变苦涩
看自己变复杂变自私以后
你流的泪水是不是真的
简单的快乐怎麽不见了

能不能回到最初
最自然最灿烂的笑容
没有钻石的爱情我也会被感动
让自己放空恢复漂亮的脸孔
你吻我一下脸就红

就回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
回到最初最晴朗最开阔的天空
搬走摩天楼别挡住彩虹
我崇拜的英雄和最爱的卡通
全都出现在今夜的美梦
全都出现在我今夜的美梦

能不能回到最初
棉花糖在手中的笑容
钻石换不了爱情的心动
让自己放轻松什麽都能想通
说爱你爱我脸就红
回到最初再也梦不到的梦

this song is currently stuck in my head. in life, we are often so caught up with the materialistic stuff that we overlook the simplest things that actually makes us happy.

finally integrating all the components together...less than 2 weeks left, we're very behind schedule due to our sissy PIC board. decided to take videos coz we feel that our robot won't run on that day...sneak preview. will show you our gripper next time round...design 2 is 10 times worst than FYP...

i havent even done my experimental set up for FYP...woohoo!

waking up early...

it's good to break our norm to laze on the bed and get up earlier to breathe in the hot warm morning air...for 3 consecutive days, i've been waking up earlier than usual and start my day off with a cuppa milo.

it's really good to not rush to school and take my own time to stroll down the oh-so-familiar route to the bus stop. it's good that i've got some spare time to flip through the newspaper and ease myself before starting off my hectic day. it's good to even have spare time to check my e-mails and reply to them before i get out of my house. it's good to even have time to blow my hair neatly instead of having messy hair out of the house. it's good to know that i'll have more time of my day since i started my day way early...

so far so good... =)

p/s: i'm thinking of shifting my blog to wordpress, should i change?? i've been so accustomed to this old blog of mine...

k..it's tuesday. the day i'm so not loooking forward. had an early start by waking up earlier than usual. reached to school at 9.35am for a 10am lesson. blogging in my tutorial class before the lesson starts...how i wished that this day will come to an end soon.

i'm so not looking forward to tuesday...and i'm sick of going to school 7 day a week. it's madness...

i so wanna get married again! whenever i see marriage scene, i can really go "awww..." and feels the bliss in it. i know i sounds very bimbotic here, but come on...who doesnt enjoy seeing people getting married? i enjoy attending wedding ceremonies as well...so looking forward to see my friends getting married! =)

p/s: i still want a hello kitty mj set. meow meow.. (i sound really bimbotic now)

lots on hand and doing nothing! needs lots of motivation...so far i've been keeping a good habit of sleeping early. at 2am...whee!!! which is much earlier compared to my usual bed time.

家好月圆 is super addictive..and it's absurdly long too. taking up far too much time...

stupid stupid robot...BAH!

was eating pukka ice cream one day, it wasn't good even with the promotion they're offering. (free mixed in on Tuesday) i'm going to boycott the place..walked back to school and i chanced upon a shop selling hello kitty mahjong set! it's chio can... i feel the girly me evolving out. haha..

i want a hello kitty mahjong set!

p/s: i'm seriously considering getting that pink mahjong set, does it have a hello kitty table to complement it???

anyway, if you guys are wondering what modules i'm taking this sems..

it's basically my specialization TEs, petroleum geoscience, fyp and design 2. though it's only 4 modules but i think this semester is super crazy...semester workload heavy kind! i miss exams....

i'm a bad girl... =(

i'm starting to become silly once again. need some advice...please help!

took a lil time off the midst of chionging my report + studying for my mid term test...

yes, the whole world doesnt have mid term test except the loser me.

to top that up, i've got 1 more 50% group project, 1 more 24% group project, 1 more 10% individual report, 1 more 12% 500 word essay to write, 1 stupid robot to handle( i've yet to write my servo motor programme) lastly, a fyp which i have not even started yet! i hope the meeting won't be any time soon...

i need a life...can someone please help me out. the rocks, stones, paleogeography, lithography blah blah is driving me crazy.

i wanna exercise but i've got no time! i know this is a lousy excuse, but when you realised that you can only manage 5-6hrs of sleep a day, exercising has become a luxury.

finally, happy children's day to all of you! bring out the kid in you! we're all young at hearts you know...

i wanna get married immediately!

was watching fann and chris wedding and i can sincerely felt the love in the air..it's soooo sweet can? oh dear, my plan to get married young is way behind schedule..

can someone just give me a random guy now? hehe...

p/s: i'm so screwed this semester..i seriously need more time! 24hrs aint enough!!!

i just need some attention...not negligence...

永远的朋友。。。

如果你很忙
我到街上去晃一晃
身为一个朋友
有些事情不该勉强
看你黑着眼圈
今晚很长我睡不着
到底是谁 害你这么想
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给 你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
因为太爱你
拼命达到你的需要
虽然只是朋友
总比什么都不是好
借你肩膀依靠
借你关心也借你微笑
我很想给 你却不要
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
我总是有让你想出声的方法
我却没有让自己离开的力量
也许友情才能地久天长
爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有
真挚的做一个永远的朋友
看着你旧旧的简讯内容
我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄
爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油
虚弱的做一个永远的朋友
几次累的想断绝联络
却听见你说 情人比不上朋友
我只是朋友

despite being busy with my sickening term paper...i feel that i should write an entry to thank my friends who helped me out with programming the robot. their help really saved me lots of trouble..

i won't want to forget the moments and their effort in helping me configuring the robot..

friends like them don't mind spending hours sitting in front of the dumb IDE and figuring what's wrong with either the compiler or my programme. they even go to the extend to read up manuals and send me mails to give me and my group ideas to solve our problem.

our group has been having lots of trouble with the PIC chip. we're all noobs at this and when we received it on hand, it's already spoilt! we kept wondering that our programmes had problems but it was the freaking board.

then again, more problems came by...this time it was the lousy compiler!

really wanna thank those who came down to school earlier..and readily helped me out! sc, azp, ky..you guys know who you are. (even though you guys won't be readin my blog) cf was even asking me this in school, "how come you have such good friends?" haha...i'm just lucky i guess. =)

i don't like this date...

i need someone to give me some motivation to do my work..working alone suck.

*pulls her hair out*

this semester is quite screwed up. i havent found a group for my specialization study module. i've yet to start on my 30 over paged term paper. i've not even started on my FYP.

seriously, what the heck am i doing? can someone please tell me to stop eating and start working.

if you're my friend out there, please remind me!

i forgot that today is a holiday! (coz everyday seems like a holiday to me!)

There are two ways to slide easily through life; to believe everything or to doubt everything. Both ways save us from thinking.

few days ago i was having kopi session with hx then we were discussing about family issues. honestly, i felt that my relationship with my family has been deteriorating. i hardly have dinner at home and the only times whereby i'm at home is either when i'm having tuition or sleeping. i've been complaining to hx that my parents don't care about me at all. a very good example is that they didn't send me off for my SEP and i came back from the airport alone after my SEP. upon my arrival back from the netherlands, i didn't have any fanciful sg dinner with my family. i did all my unpacking alone. another example to 'boast' is that they don't care about my whereabouts. even so whereby i can be missing from home for about 2-3 days and they never call me to ask where i am...i'm grateful for the amount of freedom i get but sometimes i do wonder that they even remember that i'm their daughter at times.
times when i'm back home, all i can remember is that them nagging at me for not keeping the iron board properly after iron. i cant recall when was the last time i was being praised by them. all i can vividly remember is that i have to do the housework..mopping and vaccuming the floor. changing my own bedsheets etc.. i felt more like a maid.
hx explained profusely to me that this is the way my parents love me and he adviced me to accompany my parents more often. sometimes, i do not even know what to say to them coz they didnt even bother finding out what the heck am i up to. thank god they have a sensible daughter that so far hasnt gone astray.
at MPS today, saw many cases about parental issues then i realised that i do have a good family afterall. more importantly, i'm thankful that my parents sponsored abit for my SEP trip and my mom paid abit for my braces.. they spent their hard earned money on me rather them on themselves. i would never understand or know the sacrifices they made for me but i'm starting to appreciate it. for that, i'd like to pay it forward, be it to my future kids or even my friends around me...as life is a one way ticket, only ahead and no returning back.

i choose to know lesser, think lesser..
being ignorant and dumb is blissful..
just give me my ice cream and i hope that sweetness lasts and temporary numbs my mind...

before

after..me with ice cream again! this time in sg..and i'm still having 2 scoops!

why am i trying to fill up my empty spaces in life that i leave so little time for myself? sometimes i really wonder..but...whenever i look back and realised that i managed to squeeze in so much stuff into my schedule, i'm amazed and yet questioning myself why the heck am i doing all this. should i take a step back and reflect upon myself...
what do i actually want?

A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance.

how you act doesnt equates to what you think... i think i've got a screwed up life now. i need to steer towards the correct direction...

i feel that i'm a bitch..seriously. u have no idea what a heck of person am i...

it's just only the start of school term but i'm already thinking of mid sems break. was supposed to go for my advanced diving but i think it's no longer feasible due to my faulty nose. if i really go under the knife, i won't be able to dive for 3 months. ah..shall not risk it coz it's really sensitive now. so now i'm thinking of organizing a trekking trip during mid sems break. where shall i go this time round? i wanna have a wild adventure once again.

sidenotes: i need a dessert/ice cream khaki!

happy birthday sg! there's no place to be other than home...leaving sg for 5 months is good enough for me to realise how good sg is. watched ndp at one fullerton. the fireworks was fantastic but this year's parade really very budget. think the fireworks lasted less than 5 min. moreover, there's no fireworks festival to boot. boo! i like fireworks lor...especially the golden shower of rain which covers the sky in total gold. to celebrate national day..i'll post some lame sg utube vids! enjoy! i very much like sg!





since there's MJ craze too...

i've been sleeping at 4am and waking up at 8.30am..this is crappy sleep! i wanna kill myself.

sidenotes: i learnt to play powergrid! i think it's really fun! (partly coz i won too!) good to finally find frenz to play boardgames with. too bad year 4 i'm going to be a loner coz we're all taking different modules. hopefully we can meet up more often for boardgaming sessions!

sidesidenotes: i wanna watch "up", "g-force" and "gi-joe".. those whom know me well enough would know that i very much enjy watching cartoons.

i'm tired..but i cant sleep! crap...that explains my lousy blog entry

dear all,

anyone has good ear,nose,throat specialist to intro? my sinus is giving me hell of a headache and i need to cure it really soon...it's too overwhelming..

need to invent something!

i always silently complain as to why my grandma uses a matchstick to light up the stove when there's a lighter right beside the stove. you know, the spark ignition kind whereby you use to light up your bunsen burner. i couldnt take it anymore today as i was mopping the floor of my kitchen and saw her using the match stick. i went up to her with the lighter and taught her how to use it. kay..it really took a long time for her to realise where to actually exert the force but then i soon realise that her hands arent strong enough to pull the trigger. to us, it may seemed like an effortless task, but i didnt realised that she wasnt capable of doing that with her fingers. old folks joints are really weak..i must find a lighter that doesnt require so much force. maybe those press the button kind..

anyway, i think i didnt catch the swine flu (phew) the temporary fever went off however the flu still lingers..i'm still a lil apprehensive about it.
sidenotes: i realised i've not been taking photos that often in sg already. need to be more proactive about it. i've been meeting up with friends and such..but no photos..boo! no wonder i dont feel like updating my blog about what exactly i've been up to.

being at the upper class of the society...

mixing around with people who are rich and has statues, you get to realise that they have a certain flaire when they speak. the aura they possess is different. they drink wine with knowledge and eat food with grace. besides, i think they're very knowledgable bunch of people. tai tais can drink hi-tea and kopi too! i think it's time for me to learn more about wines and fine dining. i think it's rather essential especially after graduation whereby you gonna mix around your big bosses. i've yet to have any proper fine dining experience to date! coz i'm a poor girl...however, then again, i still much prefer my tze cha and bubble tea.

anyway, my friend bought me to a spanish restaurant in bb. i'm even surprised that there's such a pleasant place in sg which sells good spanish food to boot! even the spanish wine was good, though the paella was slightly dry. nevertheless, the tapas was good! it's definitely a good place to chill out as there're hardly anyone in the restaurant..lastly, i even had a convo with the boss of the restaurant (my friend knows the boss lah). it felt like home to have spanish convo with him! he does know lots about spain! i'm going to get back to the restaurant to try the churros! yum!

talking about food again. the snacks in ion are so so only lah..think taka and bugis offer better stuff! i'm getting poor again..needa find a job soon. any recommendations?

rich with the rich...
poor stuck with the poor..
i wanna be smarter! so i shall stick with smart ppl!
i'm finding ppl to get outta sg with me..no more malaysia! i'm so bored with that place. i've more or less explored the new areas in Sg last week. Bugis's Iluma, Orchard's Ion and Orchard central...I even went ubin to feed the mozzies. Tried loads of sg food and i think it's enough already. anyone who's free next week? most probably going to Macau/Hong Kong or Jakarta/Other cities in Indo.
meanwhile, i'm avoid thinking about FYP, design projects or whatever...i just wanna have fun before all these starts coming in..

getting injured for the wrong reasons...

i'm sucha idiot such that i get cuts and bruises for very wrong reasons. got cut today coz i was repairing my desktop, opened the cpu to plug back in my monitor card coz it came loose and got cut by the PCB board.
got a big patch of bruise which is still very clearly visible now coz i knocked over a bike.
cut by the brakes of the bike coz i was fixed back my bicycle. tried repairing the brake but failed due to different brake system.

p/s: i wanna play boardgames! weekdays have offer! those interested sms me k?

you learn

After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning.
And company doesn't mean security .

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and
presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats.
With you head up and your eyes open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
And future's has a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn ...
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every goodbye you learn

By - Veronica A. Shoffstall

i love 杏仁糊！long overdue photos from hungary...

incomplete...tired.

despite having hokkien mee, 蚝煎, ba chou mee, 五香, katong laksa plus 甘蔗汁.. i'm still dearly missing my 杏仁糊..am i asking for too much? i must eat it tmr! a must is a must! it's a matter of principle...

p/s: someone asked me when does school starts and i seriously have no idea! much less abt bidding. oh dear..i'm still at a holiday mood..

p p/s: typing all these random stuff coz i'm waiting for my hair to dry...shorter hair doesnt helps in humid sg!

sg talks
feeling good to be back in singapore..especially that the weather isnt so dry. the only downside is that my hair takes a longer time to dry. at least i snip of the spilt ends of my brittle hair. though i'm still feeling abit lost getting around such that i had to use the traffic light near my place to cross the road. my sis was laughing at me when i told her that i felt weird crossing the road. i'm took used to looking towards the left! i can't help it coz whenever i'm on my bike my head just turns to the left. i gonna tell myself, look right, look right, look right! whenever i take the escalator i step towards the right too.

orchard practically changed so much! i was even tempted to whip out my camera to snap pictures of the new orchard road! with the new ion and orchard central..plus all the renovation going on. it's changing practically too fast!

bugis too! there's this new shopping centre with flashing lights in the evening! it's quite chio and the lighting arrangement are in hexagonal order.

not forgetting westmall with a new ice cream shop(whee!) and japanese titbit shop which sells over priced stuff. and finally the pizza hut in bb has closed down and changed to a prata shop. (good riddens)

for these few days, i practically felt like a tourist exploring sg. it's fun to eat my char kway tiao,wan ton mee, bbq stingray, satay, drink $1 bubble tea(clementi) have my $1 ice-cream with bread, drinking my ever favourite strawberry mos burger milkshake, finally got to eat my 鱼头炉, savouring durian and durian puffs.. sg definitely is a food heaven! till some time , pizza, pasta, bread, soups, western food is a big NO-NO for me.

photos from prague and cesky..too tired to add in comments.
think i've taken photos at too fast a speed for me to even update my blog.
busy having fun...