had maths test today. it was smoooth sailing...
#1: it had only 3 qns
#2: qns were similar to revision ex
#3: we have MORE than enough time to complete the paper
#4: the lecturer went out of the LT while we are STILL working on the test
#5: many discussions were going on in the LT yet the lecturer ignored everything!
#6: i could even check my answers with my friend
#7: i could even teach my friend how to do the qn! not copying...
my deductions...
#1: the relief lecturer was slack and incompetent (who cares if she's a top students with 4As but can't teach for nuts!)
#2: i wonder what the school is doing? putting our grades at risk thus putting the supposedly good school name at risk
#3: i think we'll just have to depend on ourselves

watched the island today at wm to commerate the end of 2 tests of the week! i wasnt as nice as i've expected. but nevertheless, it's a good film afterall (in the gp sense). the ending was abit abrupt though. i'll rate it 3.5 over 5.
enough of my crap and stuff. i realised that i'm having mood swings recently. i dont have it when i was younger. now i complain more and do lesser and i can feel that i'm degradding. why uh? is it because when one gets older, the hormones and stuff take control of your mind. k, my short term goal of the week. remain resilent, work more and complain less. be content of what i have and most importantly relax!

havent update for quite sometime...
these few days isn't a very fun week afterall. or should i say that school days aren't supposed to be fun anymore. prelims are nearing soon. hmm..starting to feel the pressure but i think not so intense yet. tml is maths test, haven't really studied yet. chem test was okay but i have doubts abt the answers i gave. the school is ever cold, especially LT5, aka ice box. looking forward to this fri's agm. should be quite fun, especially with the odacians. kin fai, wei rong, alex and the rest has been practising hard for their performance. me and wei jing have become their official superstar manager. hoho! LTs have been turned into kbox room. we managed to find out that when you plug in the red wire, the song becomes minus 1! super amazing, but the backgrd music is abit muffled. anyway, you 6 gays are cool k! looking forward to your spectacular performance!

today had ntu talk for all the j2s. then there was a story tat a student of average 3Cs couldn't get at offers in the 1st round. die leh! i was like aiming for a average 3Cs lor. hehe..so loser uh? hmm..sometimes i wish i could turn back time and study harder. but i never regret playing afterall. maybe i should have studied smartly. maybe i shouldn't have gone to jc. maybe i should have watch less tv. maybe i should have done this. maybe i should have done that. life is so much of maybes. that's why there are so much regrets in life. but dont stop there, coz regrets can't get you anyway!

i found out the most shocking thing in my life. ppl ard me are so close to jun yang. i'm jealous...seriously jealous!

ultimate! i slept for a long long long time. yesterday slept from 4am till 12pm. 8 hrs. still okay. but just eat lunch then dont know why really feeling super tired. got to the bed again. slept from 4pm till 8pm. die liao lah. wasted so much time on sleeping. i think it's mainly due to the last nights for the past week. have been running and doing too much physical stuff this week. BUT...hw leh. die die die die die. is there any word better for it? i sound stupid blogging this useless stuff online. anyway, just remembered what i chatted with wei jing on friday.

while walking have u ever turned back and look? sometimes, maybe one must know how to look back. coz maybe you'll be surprised to find out whose behind you? in life, never be too engrossed in moving forward. take a step back, see who's behind you, take a moment to ponder what you used to do? maybe you'll see some light in life and move far and further!!

i MUST blog abt what happened today. Many stupid things happen consecutively. rushed down on the cab all the way to suntec to catch zpop. it was 4:55pm by then. quite sad coz i told the superstar performance started at 4:30. to my surprise when i got there it just started. lucky me! couldnt really get a good view so had to watch the whole concert on the big screen. by nvm, it was good to hear live anyway. JJ's performance was cool! he played the piano and did some mouth rap (dont really know how to explain it). anyway, it was cool lah. gigi and fan wei qi performance was also good! maybe becoz i liked their music lah. the best was my sis's performance of course. by the way my sis is a-mei. hah! she can really do live performance man! her power and attitude..she practically screamed acrossed her personal white mic. so the whole concert ended at 11:20 i think. so we went around looking for bus 106. but we also end up getting to the wrong bus stop, which is going to the other direction. while we were looking for the bus stop, 2 ladies, old ladies came up to us and ask us where the car park is. we brought her to the nearest car park. wah...then she told us that she couldn't find her car! she forget where she parked it. she was like telling me the carpark starts with a m. then i asked her whether is was marina square then she said yes! after much search, then we realised it was millania walk! fine..nvm that! we finally found the car! she suggested in giving us a lift so we gladly accepted it! the worst thing happened! when we got into the car, she told us that she know how to get here but dunno how to drive back! WTH! wah..i was like so shocked lah. luckily she stayed at jurong and we anyhow dircted her back. weird things happened in the car. the car sound system keeps on playing the same song over and over again. it's the zhou hua jian- ai xiang sui. it repeats over and over again. heng...after much efforts we managed to get to bb. arg! i think those 2 women are the silliest women that i've ever met! i hope they managed to get back safety. 1 advice for them. dont drive out anymore...sit a cab!

i'm practically stagant. in many ways, be it my work my life my relations. i'm hoping to move on with it...but somehow i can't. why uh? next week will be a boring week but 3 test ahead. i hope these test will motivate me abit.

明天的幸福

歌手:欧得洋 专辑:看见六色彩虹

也许我没拿到满分
爱不算是完美的人

所以我比谁都认真
努力赶上你的标准

爱你就是我的责任
我跟昨天的我竞争

要用笑容取代泪痕
看你难过我会心疼

故事还没有结束
让我再把你搂住
别忘了预约明天的幸福

走过的每个脚步
都值得欢欣鼓舞
能为你吃苦不觉得苦

手心有你的温度
冷酷就可以挡住
我为你约好明天的幸福

在人海起起伏伏
爱是唯一的地图
要陪你看见每个日出

也许我没拿到满分
爱不算是完美的人

所以我比谁都认真
努力赶上你的标准

爱你就是我的责任
我跟昨天的我竞争

要用笑容取代泪痕
看你难过我会心疼

故事还没有结束
让我再把你搂住
别忘了预约明天的幸福

走过的每个脚步
都值得欢欣鼓舞
能为你吃苦不觉得苦

手心有你的温度
冷酷就可以挡住
我为你约好明天的幸福

在人海起起伏伏
爱是唯一的地图
要陪你看见每个日出

这是“有福 ”的组题曲。我本人决得满好听的。尤其是这一句词：“也许我没拿到满分，爱不算是完美的人，所以我比谁都认真，努力赶上你的标准 ”为了我们自己心爱的人我们会不顾一切的改进 自己，努力赶上心爱的人的标准。
请问你们有没有天使。。我爱你的原声带？因为这部连续剧的原唱人是俊扬。 如果你们能把这首歌寄给我，我会莫耻难忘， 感激不尽！

havent been updating my blog for a long long time. there are some weird problems with my internet connection. kay..let's put that aside and peek into what happened today.
today is a B-E-A-UTIFUL day..my day was soooo pleasant becoz of a simple letter! i shant reveal what is it yet!!! work up late again coz i was contemplating whether to go to school anot. Hmm..it didn't rain so i guess i have to go school. Practically brisked walked all the way to the bus stop, through a drizzle somemore! took 157 at 7:10am. so surprised to meet dingy and tina when i alight the bus. It was 7.35am then and it means that i have 5min to rush to the school gate. Haha..first jayed walk. then quickened my pace. Oh..i heard JJ spirit. It means that i have about 1 min or so to get to the school's gate. what to do? run lor. imagine this, you see a bunch of jj students runnning to school early in the morning dashing pass the cars. i could see the inqusitive looks on the passer-bys. the worst thing is when i reached the school's gate right on dot--there was no assembly! at that point i wanted to kill myself for that foolish act! nvm..put that aside again. had physics and gp tutorial which was relatively okay. The nice bit is coming soon...be patient. went to the canteen, got myself prata. as i was abt to sit, i heard a familiar voice. "hwwwiii beeee ah!". it was wen ting, i thought she was going to hao lian how good her wei choong is. by she just flashed me a letter. it was a letter or a note written by jun yang. YES, jun yang, the contestant in superstar that sang jj's jiang nan and jay's jie kou. anyway, i was sooooo shocked and happy lah. i was practically in tears. coz u guys dont know how much i admired him. he's silliest, act's and his voice! i supported him ever since the 3rd round audition. i shant devout what was written on the letter coz it's meant for me only k! haha...but it was a sweet and simple msg. oh...i'm so siao now. first, i'd like to thank wen ting! thanks girl...didnt expect you to ask him write a note for me! i promise not to bully u anymore! secondly, i'd like to thank JUN YANG of course. thanks for putting the effort to write the letter for me, with an orange pen somemore! my admiration towards you will just adds on and on and on and on... i nearly couldnt get my prata after receiving the letter. Jun yang---jia you. wo hui yong yuan zhi chi ni! the day went on smoothly somehow. captains' ball was fun, my grp had much advantage over the other team(heh). Bowling was great too. i got 134 ( good for a beginner). the rain stopped after our game. somehow the letter has changed my entire day...
LIKE A SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN....

how would you feel when you fall short of your expectations? disappointed and depressed? for that moment you realised that what you've expected did not occur. the despair and the dejection. how would you react to it? should you shift your thoughts to some other events. should you chat and complain your anger. should you just isolate yourself. is it good to do this in the first place? or maybe you should think at the positive side and console yourself that you've done your best. usually this would be the ideal case yet the hardest thing to do. are you courageous enough to face up to reality?
however, to think at the other point of view. maybe we shouldn't give ourself that pressure afterall? the higher hopes we have, the greater the disappointment. should we just belittle our expections? hah...oxymoron