Happy Birthday to Me!

It has really been a while since I have posted on this blogger. Since there has been a great change in the year 2013, I shall update as much as possible.
It is a really belated post but nevertheless Happy Birthday to Myself. Turning 26year just daunt upon me that I have crossed the 25 mark. I am no long sweet 20 and turning sour infact. Heh! I have 4 more years before I hit the big 30. I am really getting a little apprehensive as I have not achieved any significant milestones before hitting 30. Days ago, I asked my colleague how she felt when she turned 30 and I vividly remember the comment she gave. She said this to my chirply, " At 30, I am married, obtained a master's degree, have a young daughter. I have achieved what I am supposed to achieved!" Then I was thinking to myself that I have NOT achieve any of this, gosh!
Going on further to explain more about this year's birthday, it came in at a wrong period of time. It coincidence with the 2nd day of Chinese New Year and everyone will be busy celebrating, not to mention my bf would not be in Singapore as well. So I am actually well prepared for no forms of celebrations on my birthday. Gotten over it! My birthday also marks yet another significant change in my life whereby I will be moving to the Netherlands. Yes, yet again.
Well, when opportunity knocks on you, you either take it or pass it. I will talk more about my move to the Netherlands in the later post. More importantly, since it is my birthday and the new year, I shall make some new year's resolution like what I do every year.

1. Run a marathon
2. Climb a mountain
3. Learn something new
4. Improve my tennis
5. Practise calligraphy more regularly
6. Be more regimental about my skincare regime

Lastly, happy birthday to myself! And by the time that you are done with this post, I have most probably landed at Holland. Good luck to myself as well!

New friends n old friends

Been awhile since I have showed my face. Vexed and waiting impatiently this week...

Expectations

Even till the very last min I was expecting something.. What was I hoping for? Hoping to make myself madder? I can't even expect the minimum next time. Pointless...

Changing Attitudes

These few weeks have been a rather emotional one for me. I thought I was very good at keeping my coolness but I was wrong. It seemed like I had a lot of pent up frustrations and grievances that I am trying so hard to hide and mask it all.


My boss was asking me how things are liked and before that I had told myself to be strong and phrase my sentences correctly and carefully. However, I go so caught up with pouring out my displeasure at work such that I used wrong words. I hate myself for getting so overwhelmed so easily. Words when are not used carefully can be as sharp as a knife!

I see success as being happy at work and this means getting satisfaction and enjoying the work I do. However, this doesn’t seem to be the case. Therefore, I engage in lots of mini activities after work in hoping to mitigate my unhappiness in work. This helped a lot and I am pretty glad that those small activities make me a slightly happier person. However, happier isn’t enough! And then the whole vicious cycle of me being unhappy starts all over and over again.

Yesterday, the moody me just resurfaced again. I told myself that I am not going to wallow in self pity and perhaps I just need to correct this stupid habit of bringing in unhappiness to myself. I shall (hopefully) start a day with a smile. Plan my activities and list down the task I hope to achieve for the day. The usual saying always goes like this, “if you fail to plan, you plan to fail”. Changing attitude is probably all I will ever need. “if I plan to be happy, I will be happy” Comparing myself to many other people other there, i am grateful for what i have now!

I promise to use my time to do productive work and not be unhappy. Changing the frown to a smile isn’t that all difficult right?

Sidenotes:

Received an e-mail today and got so delighted! It has been awhile since I am so excited about something.

Fickle Minded Me

After liking orange for sometime and as age changes up. Preference changes as well...I am proud to announce that my fav colour is turquoise! Don't ask me why but it seems that my colour preference has shifted to the greenish-blue section or the blueish green where some people may call it.


Life goes on...
Been busy with art work, volunteer work, part time work and everything else except my full time work. Heh, what an irony. Seems like the sprinkles in my life is sweeter than the cake itself.
I have an 18km run coming up and i haven't been training for it. Well, i am sure i will be able to walk it off!

Ever positive and hoping for a BIG change ahead!

Unbalanced

夜里传来雨的声音 轻轻拨动心的旋律


情不自禁想到你 那些甜蜜的回忆

总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

爱情需要一些呼吸 偶尔保持一点距离

回到朋友的关系 任你自由的来去

从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗 一直好想问你这句话

却又怕 听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗 为何你总是不说话

眼看我为爱不爱挣扎

你爱我吗 好久没有你的消息

心里还惦记著你

在这冷冷的夜里 感觉那么的熟悉

好想再见你想听听你的声音

敢情的路总让人好无助 我会学著面对独处

给深爱的你祝福

你还爱我吗 一直好想问你这句话

却又怕 听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗 这是我唯一的牵挂

不管你会有什么回答

我会一直等你 你还爱我吗

Bonus of working

When work sucks, you money earned to make it up. When pay sucks, you use work fulfillment to make it up. When work and pay suck.. Time to move on a change a job. There's no bonus working when no bonus is given..
Side note: seems like I am getting weird presents for my birthday this year. Am I turning weirder or what? Well.. Different groups of people have skewed impressions of me I guess? Hehe!
Side side note: going to pick up a new hobby.. Hopefully, I will be able to seek inner peace within. Blogging through my phone instead of typing through the keyboard is weird. I don't really know how to explain it. But it's just not that therapeutic already...

Running

Haven't been running much this week as I am busy with my volunteer work. I have signed up for a trail run but my friend deserted me for an overseas trip. Guess I gonna run alone then!

Side notes: I am thinking of picking up a new hobby. Should I? I am so fickle minded!

Blogging through my phone

Now that I've downloaded the blogger app. I shall blog diligently! I wonder if anyone even reads my blog? Signing off with a picture of me and cute ball..

Emotions

Feeling so overwhelmed by everything...

Trekking Once More

Hello Blogger,

It's been a while since i've updated my dusty blog. Time for pictures and some interesting captions peppered on them. This time, i'm going to blog about my latest trekking trip, Mount Kinabalu! Yay! Mt Kk has always been a mount that i've wanted to scale for the longest time ever. I'm glad to manage to find a friend to climb with me and fulfil my long held wish. One more mountain added to my trekking list and I hope more will be added soon. If possible, can someone hire me to bring people to go trekking around the world? I'm so sick of being desk bounded.

First nice checkpoint with a small puny waterfall

The tongkat is always my best friend

Small lunches, good for dieting!

Steps, steps and more steps

You get to see a lil mist

Base camp! Via ferrata briefing for the next day

The peak! Reached the summit at an unearthly hour of 5.10am.

Summit view and waiting for sunrise...

K...Finally the sky became brighter

You see the sun now...

One of the many peaks around..

Time for via ferrata! See the clouds!

I'm going down now...

Joyful June

June is a fun month with exciting holidays to boot! I've just came back from my Taiwan and Kinabalu trip! Will try to post peektures soon! Below is a quick update to my NYR 2011. Seems like i've managed to complete quite a number of them! *Pats on my shoulders!*

"Towards greater heights- NYR 2011"

1) complete a 42km marathon
2) climb at least 1 mountain
3) learn tennis
4) go for course/ take a test
5) clean up my table and cupboard reguarly
6) travel a new country

Sick Running

I realised that i haven't been blogging for quite awhile and it isn't fair that i reguarly check my friend's blog but not update mine as well.
I guess when all the monotony in life just sinks in, it's pretty pointless to update the little bits of exciting elements during your daily life. Well, let me recall those interesting or significant bits.
Got pretty sickly over the week, one disease just comes one after another. And for no apparent reason somemore! Caught gastric flu which is very absurd! I eat regularly or even excessively, no stress or whatsoever, never skip breakfast cos i get very hungry whenever I wake up. How did I even get gastric flu?! Followed on by a very terrible sore throat which lead to me losing my voice. Sounded really hoarse. Cough cough cough, took loads of cough syrup because I need to recover quickly for my marathon! Currenly, i'm down with a bad flu and attacked by crap loads of mucus and phlegm. Yucky I know. I just cleared a box of tissue paper.
Skip the all sickly bits and I'd like to shout out that I've completed a full marathon! Yes, you've heard me right, it's a 42km run. I was pretty appehensive about the whole race as I've never ever ran for such a far distance before. On top of that, i wasn't feeling the best as my body system was down. I was really worried that my body won't allow me to complete the race. I've been running more regularly ever since i signed up for this marathon on impluse. I was contemplating for the longest time ever whether to do a full or a half. Then i just decided to whack it lah! Though i jogged more regularly but the longest distance that I've clocked during my training was only 15km. Yet I had the nerve to go for my full marathon! Madness! On top of that, before entering the race venue, traffic was really bad and I was stuck in the jam for an hour or so. I got off the car and had to walk to the starting point. To my horrow, the starting point was like 3km away from where I got off. Mind you I had 42km to complete and making me walk for 3km in is detrimental! I was already like 1hour late from the flag off time and had many thoughts of giving up the race. However, upon reaching the starting point I just knew that I have got to run, quickly so I could catch up with the rest and complete the race within the given time frame.
Now I'm proud to announce that I've completed my first full marathon at a timing of 5hr43min! I thought that it was a feat for me considering that I trained a little only. I guess, the thought of ending the whole run asap because i needed my sleep was a good motivation as well. So now...till my next run again! One of my list of resolutions for the year!

"Towards greater heights- NYR 2011"

1) complete a 42km marathon
2) climb at least 1 mountain
3) learn tennis
4) go for course/ take a test
5) clean up my table and cupboard reguarly
6) travel a new country

Bored at work

As above. Totally unproductive and unfulfilling day...I need a break soon else i'll break down in a mental state. Well..I hope to seek some peace in reading.

Secrets Frenzy!

Love the show to the max. I can't believe I teared a number of times over a few scenes. Gosh...I'm so into it!

天底下是没有完美的女人。。。
可是，情场却有不败的女人。。。
因为她们懂得， 三招。

第一招，温柔迷人，不能好像个男人。

第二招，小鸟依人，不能只做女强人。该柔弱的时候柔弱，有些时候，要成全男人的大男人主义。

第三招，楚楚可人，不要目露凶光，咄咄逼人。你男朋友不是犯人，你要目光动人，学会用眼睛电人，不是杀人

Updates after a long hiatus!

It’s time for me to post something on my blog. No more excuses of not having the time to post an entry especially when I’m so free at work. Yes, you heard me right, darn free at work. Friends whom are close to me will know that I enjoy making my schedule really pack, jam packed with exciting activities. It really dampens my spirits when work life isn’t fulfilling at all. So I guess I’ve got to spice up my after work activities then!
My Ups
I officially got admitted into a voluntary group that I’ve always wanted to join. I shall keep it in suspense here since I’ve not completed my training yet. I don’t think it’s something to be announced out loudly anyway so I’ll stop elaborating from this point on. Nevertheless, it has been a totally enriching experience so far and I’m enjoying every minute of it though it really takes up a great deal of my time away.

I started on my make up lesson. Shocking uh? A tomboyish me will get herself entwined in such a girly activity. Well, I guess it’s one of the lifeskill sets that I tell myself I’ve got to attain at some point of time. I believe that it is important to dress up appropriately for certain functions and events. I vaguely know how to do my own make up but I think I’ll be better for me to learn it via the proper way. Since now I’m a little more financially abled so I shall invest some of it in learning something useful. It is a once a week thingy and so far it has been pretty interesting.

Knowing to beautify myself using make up brushes isn’t sufficient when you’ve a flabby body. Need to lose those fats and achieve a lean body so I can continue to don on my existing clothes. I continued to exercise regularly and actively learning tennis as well. I’ve been practising it for a month or so. I wouldn’t say I’m really good at it but I think I’m coping well. Recently, I haven’t been improving during tennis lesson so that’s not a positive sign. Hopefully I’ll be able to play a proper game really soon. Learning a new sports is probably the most exciting activity of the week!

My Downs
Work is boring and it is really affecting me deeply. I get very depressed from time to time and it’s unhealthy for the mind. I thought myself to be an optimistic person but somehow as age goes by, the optimism in me seems to be diminishing. I’m seriously considering switching job when the year ends but I’m a little indecisive upon my next move. For now, it’s a waiting game and we’ll shall it. Deep down I still am very much interested in staying in this industry but I dislike my current position. I hate being desk bound and would prefer a moving job. Well, I’m pretty much stuck in it so I’ll just have to deal with it. Pay raise and bonus recently issued wasn’t promising at all. I’m running out of motivational fuel.

Got back into tutoring as my paycheck wasn’t fat enough to sustain the big appetite I have. I need to fund the courses that I’m attending currently and meanwhile save up for my upcoming holiday plans. I know teaching isn’t something for me as I have very little patience in repetitive naggings. Moreover to handle a big class will be a headache so personally tutoring is the way out. It’s one of the activities to get quick bucks to supplement my daily needs. My lessons are regularly held during the weekends so that means less time spent with my friends. But I’m sure I can work things out some way or another.
Everyday is still jam packed with activities and I hope I’ll make use of the whole day that I have. You never know what happens at the next moment. As I always phased in a crude manner, “I may be knocked down by the car, the next moment I step out. So make full use of the time you have!” Life goes on….

The Prayer

I pray you’ll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don’t know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we’ll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we’ll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L’eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c’e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we’ll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E’il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we’ll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

Blanked out

I'm feeling a lil out of place recently and I don't know why...

Don't feel like going to play mahjong..Played it in the end and won $22.
Played lousy in tennis game and can't seem to move correctly.
Had 6 hours of sleep but eye lids are uber heavy when i board the bus.
My mind is very empty and it's scaring me.

Random Ramblings

None of my wish got fulfilled. Thanks guys....(oxymoron here)

I'm hoping for a holiday soon!

Thinking

Now i know why they say that man is greedy, and why adam ate the apple. I never seemed to be satisfied with anything and keep wanting more.