人最终要是找到属于自己的世界。赛车才真正属于他的世界。那我的世界时什么呢？ 我还在想。嗨。。我做人也做的太失败了吧！都十八岁了，但还在寻找自己的世界。有时我回想，我读书是为了什么？ 读书对我而言一点意义也没有。但，又回头想想如果不读书怎能照付人群呢？在这世上， 我们背覆了太多折任，又有这么多的顾绿（cant find the word)。 要找到真正属于自己的世界谈何容易！但我还希望能近快找到自己的世界，不然活在这世上真的一点意义也没有。你找到属于你的世界了吗？

Hmm..topic for today is 周杰伦? haha..you guys must be dumb founded why the hell i suddenly metion him? I think mainly it's due to the initial d craze and i've just downloaded the movie soundtrack. I'm not really a big fan of him physically but yet a big fan for his songs. Quite contradicting uh? You know physically he can't dance, doesn't really look good (but looks abit cool lah) but yet hs songs i really have to admit is good! Sometimes i wonder how he an write some many songs within such a short time. His song in particular are very long lasting (evergreen). It's like the first time u hear it, you'll just think it's okay. However, the more you listen to it you'll get addicted. His lyrics really amazes me, the words that he uses are chim lah. I think the secret recipe to his success is really through his songs, the tunes that he composes. The combination and rythum and stuff are 天衣无缝. I seriously think he should put his songs in tv serials or movies. Coz when i listen to 一路向北, initial d theme. The lyrics, effects really matched the theme of the show. When listening, i can remember the images that are pictured in the movie screen. He moment when he cried and drove in the car. For this song (一路向北）, the starting sound abit like a matchbox 20 song. And i realised that the chorus for this song changes, which is like quite cool lah. Coz most of the songs just repheats the chorus over and over again. The way the lyrics uses car rephrases to express his feelings are so 贴切！Those his singing style for this song is quite simple, the tunes matches it lah! Look at the lyrics, cool uh?

一路向北

歌手:周杰伦


后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别
你转身向背侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪
在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会
你站的方位跟我中间隔著泪
街景一直在後退你的崩溃在窗外零碎
我一路向北离开有你的季节
你说你好累已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

後视镜里的世界越来越远的道别
你转身向背侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会
你站的方位跟我中间隔著泪
街景一直在後退你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北离开有你的季节
你说你好累已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

我一路向北离开有你的季节
方向盘周围回转著我的後悔
我加速超越却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回
停止狼狈就让错纯粹

any aes peeps out there wanna go sentosa on sat?

hApPy BiRtHdAy mAn JuN! had a fun day today. met up with becca early in the morning to get mj's prezzie. we comptemplated on which bag to buy for her. between a sling bag and a handbag. in the end, we used a coin toss to decide. haha..no choice so leave it to fate. later upon reaching her place, we realise that we forget to buy a cake! silly us. so we called zq and met up in plaza to buy a cake. later on we realise that it's quite stupid to get to her house again. so we decided where to go to have lunch. so we decided on to going causeway. haha..then we decided to play a game with her. so i sent a sms. Clue #1: go to the causeway. We took a bus immediately to there. Later on, we continued with our hide and seek. gave her clue#2: batman begins. then hide at the causeway carpark. She couldn't really solve the last clue, which was "Clue #3:the park beside the cinema." so i just called her to come the carpark. The present was right infront of her. But we hid behind the pillars of the carpark. Later on we appeared with the cake but too bad no flame. Quite fun afterall lah! Then on had lunch and took neoprint lor...etc etc. upload the neoprints soon...tired le! bye!

finally it's over. haiz..chem paper i die le! dont even have time to study lah. just briefly read through. hopefully i'll pass. watch initial d after the paper. good show after all. dont metion about the acting lah. most of the time they dont have expression coz they are supposed to act cool but the drifting of the cars and races will rush ur andrenaline. but the ending abit sad. however sad endings show will leave the most impact. i'll give it 4 stars! worth watching...

dragged myself to school today. coz i thought the complex number lect would be quite useful. but it seems that most of i have already revised. i thought he would got through the more challenging qn lah. (i'm not trying to hao lian here but becoz i've done my complex no revision) So sian of the lecture and sneak off during break to canteen study physics. Then when i reached the canteen, wj told me i just missed the mediacorp artist. there was 'jamie teo, ben yeo, bryan wong, xu qi, wang ai ling and a notorious extra, steven lim' steven lim looked much more disgusting in real life. anyway, they went to jj to shoot some variety cooking show. dont know what the hell they come to jj just to cook?? and the poor ogl had to sit in the hot sun to cheer at the artist. as quote from wy," ogls are quite pathetic, they are being made use by the school just practically to cheer. extras are paid to cheer while ogls are not given any rewards." quite true lah...what to do? they are ogls and j1s, free mah. so can make use of them... anyway, nothing much happen today except the fact that i studied in school from 9 till 4? but not very efficient lah. zoom...

BAD day...Very BAD day

What's a 4 letter word that have similar meaning as a 3 letter word?
(Don't think dirty)
This 2 words replicates how i'm feeling right now. "DAMN!" i don't have enough time to do my revision. "DIE" i'm going to fail terribly. Watched tv as dingy's place today. No choice, wei jing instigate the tv watching session. So i was attracted to it. Fallen into the trap. Wasted 3 hrs to watch "the ghost show" and "good luck". I failed to watch yi cha yang cuo because of the camp. Lucky dingy have a vcr recorder. The ending was quite okay but i hated the last bit. It's abit RA and have no revalance at all! So there goes my revision time! I hope to get rid of my addiction towards the tv. But somehow the tv just had that electromagnetic forces that attracts me to press the "on" button. I tried quitting, but i just couldn't overcome the withdrawal syndrome. Tv is a drug that manipulates the mind. It's time for me to study. I'll end off with a motivating quote, it is mainly used to comfort me abit. "Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday."

Just woke up, then i recalled what happened a few days ago..to realise that so much has happened.
day 1: the start of the camp. so much that our games com wanted to end the camp asap coz we had sooo much things to prepare and do. we had team bonding games and war games. There were some hiccups during the team bonding games due to our wrong estimation. nevertheless we had to prepare for war games. for war games, have to thank all the j2s who helped us prepared the game. especially those who helped us filled up the steeple chase hole. i know you guys took a long long time to fill it up. also, i'd like to thank the log com ppl. coz it was like a few minutes before the war games started that i know i left out plastic bag! how can we play a war game without water bomb. i profusely apologized to the log com and they readily got for me the item. BIG THANKS to the eXpOnEnTiaL com girls. War games and dirty games was quite messy. However, everyone had fun. Maybe becoz the water cooled down the scorching sun. The J1s also comment that war game was quite fun. So, overall i guess it was a success? at the night was mystery night, followed my grp democracts along the game. WoW! and the game was very well planned and fun. the clues and set up was really cool. i salute to aik siang!
day 2: another tiring day for the games com ppl but at least it was better than day 1. we had circuit, vm and mini olympics. mini olympics was fun afterall. freebie, captain ball, touch rugby, checkers. the finale, tug of war and ultimate 4.8k run.
day 3: was orienteering day. the grp that i followed around came back first! yeah! aiya..mainly due to the jian strategy that i used. abit bad when i come to think of it. coz they were quite a number of casulties so more welfare abit. we used up the 3 bus trips given. later at night was campfire. campfire was quite fun, the seniors also enjoyed themselves with all the games. however, b4 the campfire, they were alot of hiccups. super anxious and scared! i'd like to thank alex and shen hui for getting me the batteries. i also like to thank cindy and fui for helping me prepare the campfire games stuff. also the girls for preparing so hard for their performance. also thank the seniors for their presence and sporty attitude! later on was O.N. however, i find it abit exaggerating. hah..but i guess some j1s believed it was real. then later on helped out to make up. create all the wounds. the gym was in a big mess. also i'd like to apologize waii for the trouble that i've given her! sorry hor...after O.N was over, it was rest time. me, cherryn, mavis, doris and log com ppl slept at odac room. the rest slept in the gym. we wrote notes for our angels and mortals. read their evaluation for the camp. then we discussed about what happened during the camp. to realise that the camp would be ending soon...
day 4: exchanged angel mortal gift. sang song and LL started to cry...he shouldnt had started it. everyone was so sad that it will be our last project together.
over here, bee bee would like to thank the following ppl.
to the j1s: thanks for all ur presence and enthusium. it's the smile on ur face that made us want to do more for u.
to the games com: the 7 of us had really worked hard. the times we stayed back after school, the times where we planned for the game, i'll never forget the moments when we crapped too! i know most of us are burnt. it's the weather's fault! i also like to thank cherryn, for helping me so much and ur concerns for the team building game.
to my orienteering grp: thanks for ur ears. i've been crapping and complaining alot. thanks doris especially for enduring them! i hoped i've encourage someone in one way or another.
to all the j2s: thanks alot alot alot. i'd never forget the moments when we spent together. ocbc, the craps and gossips sessions that we've had. the support that we gave each other. oub, thank for making a fool out of urself.
camp meant so much to everyone. even though there would be moments that ppl would be angry with each other. there were also moments that we worked together to achieve much more than we've expected. not only the camp made us closer, the many events that we had together. Vm too, made us all tougher mentally and physically. the kayaking trip, abseiling and rock wall course. orienteering around ubins daze..all this small but minute program made us so close.
odacians are good friend that are there for you. We are real, true- blue.Our compassion should never end. A heart full of memories, we will carry. We started our group... Our circle of friends... and like that circle... there is no beginning or end..


odac camp 2004

24th odac agm

agm 2004-the piggy club

odac nite, see the number ppl!

biking trip @ ubin

the gate that we climb

the wall that we climb

the graffiti we've done

kayaking course at kallang

abseiling course at punggol

odac really came become kodak. again trekking trip

rock climbing com @ sentosa

vm 2005 everyone, 2 person behing spoilt the pic

vm 2005 girls

odac atc 2005

havent blogged for quite awhile. forget what i've done for the past few days. but one thing for sure is that i didnt study. i can assure! today went to school with my slippers on. it was raining cats and dogs (so primary school). forced myself to get to school. what to do? with ms chew (such a demanding teacher) i have to practically summit myself to her. gp lesson was ultimate long. i do applaude and admire the fact that she can endure a 3hr lesson. especially when it comes to GP, i wonder how she gets the whole class going. she could like pin point each and every student to squeeze out an answer. she expects us to repharse each and every word. i salute u! although i failed my compre...haha. but i PASSED MY ESSAY! FOR ONCE! i havent been passing since...last yr i think. so it's a once in a lifetime satisfaction. hah, i know this may seems insignificant and shallow to some. but it means a whole world to me! it's my first stepping stone towards a pass in gp. ah..crappping... after gp, went to dechlorinize the water for the guppies game. later on, met up with zq, becca and mj. tml will be the 1st day of atc. i hope everything goes well...DONT rAiN!

Initially supposed to go sentosa with zq. However, my whole body was aching after yesterday’s volleyball game. So stoned awhile at home. Then my mom called to asked if I wanted to shopped. Weird her…to think that she’ll ask me out to shop. Then I just agreed lor! Can buy things that I liked without paying..why not? Went suntec’s bookfair at the same time too. Didn’t buy any books…I’d rather borrow books from the library. Shopped around suntec after that. I didn’t realized that GSS had so much to offer. Everywhere had so many discount! It’s Saturday today and the weekend is ending. Omg, I just spent my whole week slacking and playing. This means that I only have 2 more weeks to prepare for my common test!!! Save me…

Had class outing today. Finally able to go to sentosa with the class, missed it last time because of ug camp. Fun fun fun. Played whole day long under the scorching sun. Freebie, beach volley, soaking in the water and some of them even went to catch crabs…. Not bad. At least managed to improve my volley skills. I think I’m getting good at it! (so bhb right?). All the practice in school at least paid off. I didn’t realized that the volleyball net was so high. Even if I used all my energy to jump, at most half my palm could go over the net. I could also set the ball and anyhow spike! Haha… Next time go sentosa would throw face le! Initially after sentosa, we were supposed to go marina to eat steam boat. However, all of us were so tired..we left sentosa at about 8pm I think. So we went to harbour front food court to eat…took a bus home. I didn’t realized that 188 and 61 reached harbour front. Sua ku me!

i've known her since sec 1. used to think that she's a lian. she would sit at corner, give that buay song face. sec 1, we were just classmates. co incidentally we got into the same cca. sec 2, things changed. through the camps, trainings, class activites and the common interest. we became friends. sec 3, we never spilt, we made into the same class. class 3/1, those were the days where we could play freely and enjoyed our secondary school life. our bond grew closer. then 1 year past by, o levels are drawing near. we became good mugger partners. so much ongoings in school, life became so busy. np, sc practically took over our life. we were always there for each other. results came out. year 2004,we spilt. though we are in different schools we still remained close in contact. you went back to our fellow sec school to help, but i'm sorry i didnt. i felt that i have too much to cope with. this year is our second year of seperation and i hope our friendship will continue to bloom. today is your special day, though you never said anything abt it. but as your good friend here, i'd like to wish you a happy birthday....

woke up at 8am. tired...got less than 5 hrs of sleep. dragged myself to school. missed the 174 becoz i was reading in the bus stop. just so happen when i looked up to check if the bus was here, 174 just zoomed past me! such good luck uh? anyway, today's atc meeting was very long. discussed abt many stuff. i just the funniest bit was when we were trying to rehearse o.n. (shant explain what's it is, who knows some j1s much get hold of this confidental info). later we went market to eat lunch. after lunch, we went to mavis place to swim. such fun! went to jacuzzi then the kids pool. sat on the see saw, slide on the slides and hide under the raining mushrooms. we were practically like kids...i guess we lost all our image infront of the real kids. after the swim, we went for steam bath. so enjoyable. after all the water activities..i'm feeling lethargic and tired. i'll shall end here.

i just love the odac girls...

i decided to change the blogskin. since i'm quite free today...went out for awhile only. the previous blogskin is too bright and small, can't really show the pic. moreover the words are small. so decided to use something with BIGGER space. by the way, please dont be overwhelmed by the tender love above the pic. i just liked the anime..so cool. moreover, it's not the first time i'm using an amine skin. blue is a nice colour afterall..
zq called me and told me tat she'll be going back to her course after all my efforts to persuade her not to go. haiz..not going to celebrate her bday afterall. all of us are juz to busy with our stuff...but i'll make sure i'll something abt it! what's the point of being friends when we dont celebrate your birthday right? and i hope to treasure each and every moment spent with my friends. especially u, yes u...the point that you bother to read my blog shows alot abt u!

walking across the express way


me and zq


see the stairs?


eddie and ck

went to study at woodlands today and watch madagascar after that. quite a lame show afterall but it was rather short. the story plot is lame lah. i'll give it 3 stars. actually more to report lah..but very tired le. so end here can?

chiong dolphin bay the whole day. i started watching it on fri night. i used to thought that it was a stupid show. however come to think if it, it's quite a nice show after all. i hated the show initially becoz of the leading actors in it. angela zhang, she looks like an alien, super anoroxic, big head and small body. next was xu shao yang. his face ah...juz see bu shuang, so fair, looked super gay. so this maybe explains why they are together in the show. but the 2 ppl i liked are in the show too! huo jian hua and xu jie er. ahh...they are so meant for each other. i'll rate this show 7 out of 10 bah. worth spending my 18hrs on it! anyway, the song you're hearing now is journey. yes, it's sang by angela zhang too. but do you know that the composer and writer of this song is corrinne may? corrinne may is the new singaporean singer. dont you find her song nice and soothing...she's super talent. i'm trying to find the angela version of journey coz i think she sings better than corrinne may. but i doubt angela understands what's she singing...hah!

As i've promised i'll start updating on friday. i havent been blogging for about 2 weeks, lazy me. i've been playing hard and slogging hard. hmm...what did i do? went kbox, swimming, movie...haha. playing too hard. the past few days have sooooo many many test!!! tuesday have chem spa. wed have physics test ( i've failed it despite studying for it! sian diao!!!!). thursday have gp tca. friday have gp content test. phew! and its finally over. okay i shall forget about the past and talked about what happened today.
attendance in shcool was bad today. school is slack. mdm khoo was practically teaching for fun. t.t just showed that bu shuang face when he's teaching. chem practical was so slacked that it ended 30min earlier. today is official odac last training but all of us are still nonchalent about it coz there's still atc! did some planning for atc..the camp sounds fun overall! then we slacked around in school. then went to pluck mango! no wonder they didnt pluck mango in the morning! the mango are sour lah..but quite fun lah! then we saw the old parade ground. recalled those moments that we assembled there. we started to fall in! haha...did drills..so fun. missed those moments when we do drills together. doing drills together with the odacians are fun after all! imagine scouts, np, ncc and st johns come together to form a squad and march together. tough we have differences in our previous cca but we have something in common now! so feeling is just so great....

gr8 day today. me,ck, ziqi and eddie met at mac ritchie at 9.30am. yes...we went to the hsbc tree top trail, at last. the route to the trail was 5km. but the whole tree top trail was like only 480m?? so short! but the trail was one of the longest moments of my life. as you know, i'm scared of heights. and when i looked down...OMG! so high! didnt know that the tress could grow till such height. from afar we could see the reservoir too! magnificant view. we took some pic during the walk. i'll upload them as soon as i'm free. ck walked the fastest....becoz he was scared lah! haha...and me and eddie was like jumping on the bridge, hoho. after the trail, we had to climb so many stairs...it reminded me of those VM days..later on we continued walking from mac ritchie back to bukit timah hill. the whole route was about 10km i think. we walked on the highway, through forested trails. saw monkeys and a dead lizard (yuck). we walked for a whole 3hrs back to bukit timah market and drank sugar cane! the whole walk was quite fulfiling. later on we played pool at mambo which was quite boring. some of you may think i'm siao to walk such a distance. but it's becoz of these interesting routes in s'pore that make s'pore so fancinating! to me it beats walking around orchards for hours. hmm..i'll soon be exploring more interesting routes around sg, anyone interested?