感情是那么的脆弱，淡了，变了。。
勉强也真的没有幸福反而辛苦
我不相信天长地久
我相信我们曾经拥有
我拥有一段快乐的时光
虽然短暂，但是很难忘。。
谢谢你的爱，
至少我知道我付出的一切都是值得的
我爱你很深，
你为什么让我伤好深？

i'm sorry if i had irritated you in one way or another
i really didnt mean it.
it's just that i tried whatever i could already
i really felt useless, seems like everything in going the wrong way
i'm sure i'll be able to make everything right and put things back in place..
i'm just happy to be by your side
and i really love you dearly...

i wouldnt say i'm someone very hard to please
i easily get contented
all i need is daily shower of care and concern which are sincere
for now..i'm contented with what i have and i really treasure it

p/s: design and hr project are getting abit too much

i dont know
it scares me so when i hear this
it's such a vague word
i dont know whether you're trying to hide things from me
i dont know what you're thinking of
or it is that you dont know what you really want
what are you thinking
when can things get clearer?
i need answers.

i was googling trying to spy out someone's blog add. happen to see that she's in the dean's list. good for her. then was bored enough to go check out me's dean list. i realised one of my proj grp mate was on dean's list and then again i saw my intern friend happens to be on the dean's list too. another aquitance friend was there on the list too. what the heck! seems like i've got alot of dean lister friends...

i'm sorry that i irritated you.
sorry for making you so fed-up.
i just cant help it coz i really felt insecure
when you said that " told you that this wont work out", it really hurt me
please dont hurt me anymore
i really cant take it
i'll take a step back and give you some space
i hope you'll feel better

who am i to you now?

I love you, say we're together baby, you and me

I can only give my life and show you all I am
in the breath I breathe
I will promise you my heart
and give you all you need if it takes some time
and if you tell me you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better,
ooh...

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

You say you hardly know exactly who I am
so hard to understand
But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside,
if you read my mind
and if you tell you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever, no
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

Remember when you used to hold me,
remember when you made me cry
You said you loved me, oh, you did, yes you did

I love you, say we're together, baby, say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever, baby, you and me.

money for sep
should i try to earn more money or save more?
i think earning more works better for me. it's quite hard for me to save.
just walked ard the bazzaar and spent money.
not on clothing or accessories..
but on japanese titbit!
seriously, i've a weak spot for food.

my current life

studying
mahjong
poker
board games/ card games
movie
tv
internet
jogging
tuition

i need to inject more excitments!

sidenotes: good luck to lehmann brothers and the other i banks. lucky that engineering companies are not subjected to such risks. investors out there, think twice! and cheers to singapore's paralympics gold medal!

when i complain, it means that i just wanted something more or something different
i'll just nag, nag and nag but eventually if things goes back to square one, it doesnt really matters!
i just needa release some air
need someone to listen to what i have to say and perhaps say something encouraging or motivating
i dont expect much..

bee bee is brought back to her boring life once again..regretting but contented.

i remember reading the papers a few weeks ago that talks about how your spending habits reflects one's happiness level.

to contray belief, those who spend lavishly and indulge themselves in branded stuff are not very happy people afterall. those who are stingy and hold their wallets tightly are not very happy people too. whereas, the happiest consumers are those who spend willingly on "experiences". "experiences" are like food, travelling, leisure activities as such..activities that you get to experience. heh! sounds so like me! i won't say that i'm a spendtrift, but if i have extra cash to spare, it's usually spent on food and trekking! though now i'm trying very hard to save...of course for an experience again!

and i was reading through some forums on how to lose weight. not that i'm trying very hard to lose weight lah. it's just that i need to get rid of my fat thighs so i can fit into slim pants. then i saw this post about body fat percentage. i remembered mentioning to xiao hui and bryan that my body fat percentage was 21% and they were quite surprise. i was quite puzzled coz i tot it was 'normal', but xiao hui told me that hers was like 10 plus percent only. am i that fat??? then i went to wiki..see! i'm fitness k!

DescriptionWomenMenEssential fat12–15%2–5%Athletes16–20%6–13%Fitness21–24%14–17%Acceptable25–31%18–25%Obese32%+25%+

we all have different roles to play.
and for that i kindda hate it.
it's tough to behave "appropiately" at certain times.
i just wanna be myself

doing things together.

i always enjoy the company of others.

makes me feel that i'm not alone.

even though there will be quarrels and squabble, at least there's 2.

maybe that's another reason why i like the number 2.

when someone puts in the effort to call u, do try to accompany even though you're not interested.

you never know whether you'll enjoy it in the end.

i just wanna go through the process, i ignore the outcome.

i need to put my hands into the fire to know that it's hot.

and i need to taste the ice cream to know that it's sweet.

i never like to predict or forsee.

everyday is a surprise coz u never know what lies already for you.

sometimes dutifully predicting and planning can be a chore

and this bores me...

was supposed to study for my heat transfer quiz. but then i couldnt really stay still...
was thinking of what i wanna do about the subsequent years of my life.
i'm 21 already, omg..about 1/5 of my life is gone. that's if i get to live till 100.
some people will have short term goals of studying hard to get that piece of paper. get the class of hons that they want, then end up with an ideal job earning big bucks.
seriously, if u ask me what kindda job i want...i may not be able to give u a very certain answer. i'm not certain about what i wanna be. engineer? maybe...
however, i do have a dream though. i wanna sink down the deepest ocean, climb the highest mountain and walk across every patch of land. i really wanna see the world.

if only i have the money.....

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Words of Affirmation

My Detailed Results:
Words of Affirmation:	8
Quality Time:	7
Acts of Service:	6
Receiving Gifts:	5
Physical Touch:	4

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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fireworks were beautiful...and so were you. thank you for everything

*UCK it! stupid clothes stealer... i'm so damn gonna catch you!

all i want now is lots lots lots of denim skirts!

I HATE THAT EVIL PERSON!!!

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compare between the editted and the uneditted one. especially my eye bags... do notice that yihui has a sharp face and bigger eyes. that's why i love photoshop..

yippee! i've finally got my CS3 working! i can start editing my photos to make myself look more decent (not that i'm not decent). yeah..i need to sort to such tricks to please myself. i'm not so free to edit all my photos k! 99.99999% of my photos are orginal, fresh and raw..
anyway, my cs3 is used mainly for designing and self entertainment purposes.
i've been fiddling around with autocad recently. i thought it was quite easy...but i was so wrong about it. it's super user unfriendly. however, pro ppl can do stuff very quickly. i think i forgot how to use soildworks already...
2 more weeks to the end of my VIP, i'm so looking forward to it! i cant wait for school to start! at least, i'll get to see students. beats, looking at banglas and indians for 3 months. i know how to differentiate them already. i'm sooo proud of myself. hahah... it's just that working is so boring. each and everyday, everyone is wasting time and waiting for the day to end. i'd really much prefer studying (or maybe just going to school and not studying). haha...