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compare between the editted and the uneditted one. especially my eye bags... do notice that yihui has a sharp face and bigger eyes. that's why i love photoshop..

yippee! i've finally got my CS3 working! i can start editing my photos to make myself look more decent (not that i'm not decent). yeah..i need to sort to such tricks to please myself. i'm not so free to edit all my photos k! 99.99999% of my photos are orginal, fresh and raw..
anyway, my cs3 is used mainly for designing and self entertainment purposes.
i've been fiddling around with autocad recently. i thought it was quite easy...but i was so wrong about it. it's super user unfriendly. however, pro ppl can do stuff very quickly. i think i forgot how to use soildworks already...
2 more weeks to the end of my VIP, i'm so looking forward to it! i cant wait for school to start! at least, i'll get to see students. beats, looking at banglas and indians for 3 months. i know how to differentiate them already. i'm sooo proud of myself. hahah... it's just that working is so boring. each and everyday, everyone is wasting time and waiting for the day to end. i'd really much prefer studying (or maybe just going to school and not studying). haha...

autocad is so unfriendly towards me..=(

我知道我变漂亮了 - 《一切完美》主题曲
过去的批评嘲讽 (Let it go Let it go)
过去的轻蔑冷落 (Let it go Let it go)
有些人口不饶人 却忘了瞧瞧自己 又有什么资格
时刻都善良待人 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
时刻都做好本分 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
有些人心思浅薄 绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由
也许 确实也受过言语打击
也许 从来也没什么好际遇
但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里我们又不会妨碍这世界（的）美丽
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过 失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑 不埋怨
就算还差一点点用内涵
弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼

2 years later..i'm going to graduate. what should i do? hmm..this year's job market isnt that promising... should i be an engineer?

trapped!
trapped and enclosed in an invisible boundary.
limited things that can be done.
detached momentarily from the real world.
friends are becoming more distant.
what else are you left with but a cold and heavy heart.

life has been mundane so far. working, tuition, going out with friends etc. i'm quite bored actually. i need to inject more excitment and fun into my life. was msning with seng chiew just now and chatted with him about his exchange in japan. sounds like his having so much fun. was surfing facebook and it seems like lots of my guy frenz are enjoying themselves in camp. while here i am waiting for time to whizz by...
i think i'm too obesessed with materialistic stuff, earning more money for myself so i can spend more and have more for my exchange. i'm starting to lose life...i wonder whether is this worth it at all. slogging myself so i can have 5mths of fun?

holidays...

1 more month to go after the end of the holidays...and what have i done?
seeing all my friends involve in camps and orientations, i do get very jealous. having all the fun, basking in the sun. while here i'm, stoning and bored in the office trying very hard to get down to work.
i'm wondering whether this holiday is well spent..since i didnt managed to get enough fun out of it. i recalled what i did last year and realised that it was much more fulfilling. 1 month of trek, 1 month of work, 1 month of camps..so exciting! while this year, i had only 3 months of work...so dull. then again, working is much better than slacking at home. i shall grab as much money and work the ass out of me to save enough for my trip next year.

silly me with scarecrow

wided-eye me with bicycle

act hiao me with bamboos

fat me at alexandar arch

taking things for granted. we take alot of stuff for granted without realising it until it is taken away from you or when things dont go the way it supposed to be. i dont deny that i belong to one of those people..
but i'm the kind who doesnt know that the fire is hot until i put my hands into it. i have to get scalded by the burning flames to know that it is wrong and it's not supposed to be done this way.
think i've got to make myself more conscious and considerate. think of others, appreciate their efforts, reconigize their significance and importance.

i wonder if there are still people reading my blog? i doubt so..since i've already said that i'm not going to blog anytime soon. haha...
anyway, i really like lu guang zhong album. gonna find it and buy it. it's so cute! not the guy, but his songs.
temper...is something that i believe can be controlled. dont think you can raise your voice at someone just becoz you're angry and pissed. you should speak in a proper manner to get your point through and treat the person with respect. if you can explain yourself in a cool manner, i believe the other party will cool down and apologize or whatever...haha. yeah, that how i feel. temper and manners can definitely be cultivated!

it's very hard to please others. sometimes you do it so often that the person takes it for granted. then it came to one point when you cant do what the person wants u to do..you just get scolded and told off. maybe too much pampering is bad. the person becomes spoilt.

nevertheless, you cant help but want to pamper that person...
just pray that you'll be able to do the right thing...


went to explore southern ridges! so fun...good to walk around natural places. especially so when they are scares in sg. will upload photos soon! i'm so bored at work...

the next place that i wanna go!

there's more!!!

bee bee is so broke. why? coz most of her money are spent on her friend's bday present. all the 21st birthdays!!! it's never ending.

hmm..just went to vee's bday party last sat. this coming sat going to attend another one. this month is crazy, too many 21st! sometimes, i wished i had lesser friends. haha! i'm quite envious to those who had 21st bday parties, it seemed so fun. to see all your friends gathered together, giving you well wishes. haiz, if i wasnt that lazy, i should have organized one! in fact, i really loved to have a 21st party. i enjoy hanging out with my friends, especially so when there's so many at one go! if i'd have time to organize one more again, i write out a whole list of friends that i'm going to invite!
but then again..you celebrate birthdays annually. yah..so it didnt really mattered lah! haha..just allow me to whine and rant on my blog!

read this on chop chop's blog. touching story..if u have the time..read it.

你爱的，只是我爱你的感觉
他跟她在一起三年，她精心呵护着他的一切，甚至每天他的牙膏都是她为他挤好，皮鞋必定是她晚上帮他擦好，只有一点，她几乎从不下厨，即便是下厨也是从超市买速冻食品，吃起来索然无味。于是，渐渐地他练就了一手好的厨艺，因为他看到她吃自己做的菜，一副享受的表情，他就觉得很幸福。
　　后来为了有更好的发展，他开始了拼命地打拼，然而，每当他一身疲惫地回来，等待他的永远是一碗白米粥。看着她纯净的眼睛，到嘴边的话，他又咽了下去。
　　终于有一天，他的母亲要来看他们，其实是看她这个准儿媳，指明了要吃一顿她做的饭。她请求他：你能不能留下来，帮我做这顿饭?
　　他低下头，公司有个重要的合同，假如顺利签订了，他们就可以有自己的小窝了。其实，他的皮包里已经装着新房的钥匙，他是想给她一个长大的机会，然后他的母亲才能放心地把自己交给她。他是家里的独子，他必须要让母亲知道，他娶了一个爱他的女人，即便不善厨艺，也愿意为他做饭。
　　他看到她眼里一闪而过的失望与破碎的惊慌，终于狠下心走了出去。
　　然而，等他下班回来，看到的却是冰锅冷灶，还有母亲阴沉的脸。她看到他回来，迎上去说，亲爱的，你先洗洗，我们出去吃饭，我已经订好座位了。
　　他强忍着不满，沉默着走进卫生间，很长时间没有出来。他心里既愤怒又委屈，平时都是他做给她吃，今天母亲来了，哪怕她只表现一下，也应该亲自去做呀，这也好让他对母亲有个交代。
　　果然，饭桌上母亲态度鲜明地表示对她的不满，他在一旁如坐针毡，抬眼看她，却发现她一脸坦然地将那盘最咸的咸菜吃了个精光。
　　 母亲终于忍不住了，将筷子一扔，拂袖而去。他脸色尴尬，追了出去。
　　 在他甩上门的瞬间，她趴在桌上，瘦削的肩膀剧烈地抖动。
　　 他们终于还是分手了。但是，他再没有遇到像她那样对自己好的女子，他心里明白，她的那些好，宠坏了自己，让别的女人再难入他的眼。
　　 在陌生的城市陌生的街头，他们就那样猝不及防地再度相遇了。在咖啡厅里，他意外地发现，她居然一脸淡然地喝那种苦涩的黑咖啡，如同无味的白开水。
　　一瞬间，一道电光石火在他脑袋里炸开，他颤抖着问她：你没有味觉?　　她一愣，手里的咖啡荡出来。你终于发现了?
　　他紧紧地握住她的手，手心却被一件硬物硌得生疼，低头一看，是一枚刺眼的钻戒戴在她手上。
　　他的心开始痛，想到那些曾经的日子。那时他们才从学校毕业，没有任何积蓄。冬夜里，她总是等他熟睡后，起身洗他的衣服，然后在炉子上慢慢地烘干。一双手长满了丑陋的冻疮，让她难受得龇牙咧嘴。他想起，他做的第一顿饭，她吃得一脸平静。
　　而整整三年，他却对她的种种异常，视而不见，连她没有味觉，都不知道。他却因为，她没有单独为母亲做一顿饭而放弃了她。
　　她告诉他，现在的他，在遇到她的第一个月，就发现她的味觉不正常，于是她放心地告诉他，自己在8岁那年，生过一场大病。
　　他虚弱地说，我也是爱你的。
　　她对他笑笑，不，你爱的，只是我爱你的感觉。爱一个人，必定有着贴肤的温暖与疼痛，而你，竟然感觉不到。
　　他们在最近的时候，本该心无间隙的时候，也是咫尺天涯的距离。所幸，她醒悟得还不晚，还有机会去寻找自己的那一份贴心的暖。

dear all,
i've decided to stop blogging for some time. how long? i don't know. maybe when i've got the mood. meanwhile, i'm still alive and kicking. don't worry, nothing tragic has happen to me. just that life aint exciting anymore, it's just simpler. yeah.. =)

lake kenyir trip photos are so long overdued!

hello all. i know many of you have been regularly checking out my blog and persistently see no new updates. not that i'm too busy to update or whatsoever. just that i'm so reluctant to blog. life has been quite boring compared to the past few years. but it's good that i'm starting to take things so.. moreover, much of my time is supposed to use for other purposes. yah..so there goes my blog. kk..

exams are finally over. verdict: i think i'm going to jeopardize my cap again. wth. i'm praying for an 0.000001 drop. haha. something that tends to 0.

after exams, rest and more rest. played mahjong, watched movie,kbox and read a book.

currently, doing internship which isnt very exciting. 12 more weeks for it to end!

anyway, check out my blog soon. i'm going to post pictures for my lake kenyir. i think this is the only highlight of the holidays. hopefully i'll be able to squeeze in time for 1 more holiday! i wanna get outta sg.

trying very hard to study fluids but failed. i really have no affinity with fluids really.. was reading my friend's blog again. he went krabi during school term, which is like so cool lah! i should have planned something like that.

just look at the blue blue sea...just makes me wanna plunge in. was chatting with him about what he does at krabi. guess what the first sentence he said, "hb, i think you'll love the place..it's so outdoor!"

hmm...i wonder whether i've got time to squeeze in a holiday in the midst of my internship? i wish!

life's like a rubberband

rubberbands are amazing inventions. they stretch, bends..very elastic, binds things together and not forgetting that they snap. when 2 rubberbands are put together, they can achieve great things, hold on to heavier load, withstand greater deformation. however, if 1 rubberband is used instead, little can be done but it can stretch much more and further than 2. 1 rubberband snaps more easily than 2 though. please, dont make a rubberband snap, dont put too much load on it, unload and relax it...it will give way one day or another.

so near yet so far vs so far yet so near
who says being physically close means that they are close? i dont believe in such things. you may sit, eat, study or watever with a certain person everyday, yet both of your hearts are so far apart. whereas, you get to see this particular someone every like once a month, but you know you can pour all your sorrows and divulge all your secrets to that person. you know that someone will be there for you and you are so comfortable with that. talking everyday doesnt means you're communicating. speaking the right thing, thinking insync, sharing nothing but the truth is true communication...it beats the tons of words spoken per day when you say that a crucial sentence.