Friday, January 05, 2007

celebrated kel's bday at imm. then went to civil servant center to bowl since all of us live at bb. got him a shirt, abit small or maybe his shoulders too broad?? had fun meeting up bb frenz..lol. for more details on what happened, i direct u to jing's blog!

janice, kah leng, dingy..

me and dingy..

the ribs that i ate..i like cartel's ribs. shld try it!

me and bday boy kel..

our ball-ed face..that kel didnt cooperate!

all in a line...

just a grp pic at the bowling alley..

Thursday, January 04, 2007


the kelong...

playing with sparklers...too bad i dont have pic of the fireworks. have a video of it though!!

dunno what the both of them are doing???

i really caught this fish!

in the van...

dining togther..

the stupid things we do with coconuts!

sibu jetty...

in the boat...

me and jason kiam pa bin..

playing mahjong at kelong, a diff experience! yihui & jian long..take note!

stuck in the big wave..
u see the number of ppl that jumped together!


i totally love this pic! we're so happy...

the rainbow that marks the end of our trip..and the beginning of the new year. i really have the luck!

27th rovers

there're more photos, 1.4GB of photos in fact. no time to upload lah..these are the nicer ones i guess?

was compiling all the rovers photos that we used to take..here's a video of berkelah waterfall specially for those who missed it! enjoy...

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

i havent been updating for a long long long time. not sure it's becoz of my reluctance or my lazyness. i guess this holiday has turned out as spectacular and fabulous as i've expected it to be. ah..nvm. it's ending soon.
happy new year to all, i know this sounds cliche but i hope everyone will be happy anyways for the year 2007!
Happy 2 year aniversary blog!

Monday, December 25, 2006

Random pictures from x'mas celebration at nic's place. Forget to take photo of the food! Especially the turkey and cheesecake!





















Monday, December 11, 2006

decorate my x'mas tree!! no present nvm..but must have greetings!
http://www.mtvasia.com/Funstuff/Xmas/xmas.php?treename=bee_bee

my legs are breaking after the skate..i hope the big blister doesnt burst. i need a good pair of feets to trek. i think i've tortured my feet. 1st was the point pair of shoes, then it was the tight pair of skates, next was the high heels..arg. my legs need a rest. slippers for me tml!

人老了,不总用! i'm not sure if it was the correct zong.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

yeah...finally it's over! went to vivo for a movie after the show..will upload our gang pic soon. i was supposed to study before the paper, but i dont really have the mood. so much to remember, they should like allow a help sheet at least! anyway, i can feel the xmas mood!! coz i was listening to christmas songs while studying. this explains why i can't concentrate! anyway, this is my all time fav christmas song...i'm looking forward towards the holidays!

"Have yourself a merry little Christmas"
Have yourself a merry little Christmas.
Let your heart be light,
From now on our troubles
Will be out of sight.
Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on our troubles
Will be miles away.
Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore,
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.
Through the years
We all will be together
If the Fates allow,
Hang a shining star
On the highest bough,
And have yourself
A merry little Christmas now.

Monday, December 04, 2006

1 more paper left...this whole thing is getting sian! my blog havent been updated for a long long time...i'm still surprised that people still visit it?


i dont understand myself...or maybe u dont understand me...

Thursday, November 23, 2006

I LOVE ANIMANIACS!



Thursday, November 16, 2006

i dont believe the hints given. total crap! i'm STILL doing my tutorials eg tutorials, simple beam experiment, i cant believe that experiments can be done online! total crap! physics tutorials..arg. i totally believe the whole world around me is already revising there stuff! so when you see me in school pls dont ask me this qn:"how's ur revision going on?" i'll just walk off...BAH! the whole sch's atmosphere is super intense now,you can totally feel the mugging spirit! it's so spiritual lah! unbelieveable...everyone's so into the mood. I NEED A LIFE! i dont anymore energy to resolve forces. there's no more area for me to move. my body is aint efficient, input doesnt equals to output. my body's temperature is rising, pressure is increasing. the stress is causing strain on my body and i'll soon fracture. all the terminology and formulas...sian

Monday, November 13, 2006

i've been on an eating feast. so far for the past 2 days, i've eaten these. pizza (regular), chao guo tiao, fish n chips, half a chicken from my fav ke ai ji stall, apple pie, ramen from ajisen, ice cream cone (3 scoops), 2 small bao, 1 packet of khong guan lemon puff(not the individual pack but the whole pack!),bak chok mee,rojak stall near my pri sch, my fav satay meehoon from bukit timah market n as usual my daily dosage of milo.
i'm feeling soooooo FAT! i was an jurong point awhile ago and i distinctively remembered that the mos burger branch at jp sells my fav milkshake. i happily queued for it! in fact, the 2 girls infront of me brought 2 cups of my fav strawberry milkshake. then when it was my turn, i got this stupid reply: "there's no more milkshake. anything else instead?" WAH PIANG! WHY I SO SUAY!!! why i could eat all the nice food but i couldnt just have a slip of my fav milkshake! i'm having milkshake withdrawal syndrome...

Thursday, November 09, 2006

life is great when i'm not studying! played mahjong at evan's place today. though didnt win but nvm lah. $3 only. haha...there wasnt any "spectaculars" compare to what happened at yh's place but it's a good break from school. it's good to know that common eng people are fun people afterall! haha! evan was like saying maybe we should have a regular mahjong session after the exams for our class people. yeah! i guess we can only do this at his place since his house so big! i'm totally jealous with people who lives in land propety. besides, he also has 2 cute dogs (vee look at this) and he has a drum set, an electric guitar and a keyboard! haha...what a band! later on, went for a run. is really good sweat it out and unknowingly my mind feels lighter after running. i guess i throw away alot of stuff from my brain...

thursday at school was also rather slack because of the rain again! i hope this rain will start going away. SS lecture was quite interesting this time because there was a guest speaker. i cant really remember his name but he's a blind. he talks about his volunteerism acts, the books he wrote and sort of what he life experiences..bla. quite interesting though. next up was mle lect, the lecture again showed us another video! plastic video...haha..quite interesting to see how plastic was actually manufactured. this lect is so obessed abt mentioning the economic cost factors of plastic, like which plastic is cheap? anyway, the cheapest plastic out there is PVC. he showed us his silicon rubber made fake hand. he also mentioned that cars nowadays have bumpers because of the defination of a car, not that the bumper helps to absorbs impacts. it's quite crappy lah...hah

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

talking about the weather again..
it has been rainning continuously this month and this has not been helping me at all! the rain made the whole environment so conducive for sleeping. it gets especially worst when i'm at home, the raindrops falling, misty windows, natural cool breeze and the sight of my bed! these truely makes me wanna nua...
anyway, the rainy days also sort of describes my life now too? it has been rainning non-stop! things happened one after another.lightning,storms,drizzle,thunders...anything but a rainbow! i tried to be focus already but somehow it's not working. i think i need to clear away the grey clouds so i can see the sunlight!
today happened yet another heavy downpour, i dont understand the sudden outburst in certain people. lucky i was late, if not i will just blow a hurricane towards you guys. i dont understand what's the fuss about? haiz...i guess whatever decisions made can never satisify everyone.
tests,tutorials blah blah...i need to understand u guys more instead of trying to figure out what's on other people's mind. however when i face all my academic stuff, the haze will come! and i will only vaguely vaguely see through all my stuff. didnt blogged for the past few days coz i was buried under tests and tests and test. i think all my studying didnt help at all.
was driving on the road yesterday and i mount kerb while doing a right turn. i was super stunt lah! my first experience. i guess my mind was too preoccupied with my online assignments and test. i truely can't solve many questions. it was very dangerous of me to drive when i'm not thinking straight. then i just stopped the car by the road side to stone. lucky i got back home in one piece.
argh, blogging is supposed to help one destress. but it's not helping me at all! it's agravating it! if i still dont see that rainbow soon, i'll be totally trapped in the rain. i'm so drenched....

Saturday, November 04, 2006

You Are An ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.


Aquarius

Turn ons

Aquarius are friendly and fascinating people. They have in-depth knowledge about various subjects and you can converse with them for hours without getting bored. They are capable of giving a lot of love that can be amazing. They have very broad outlook about life and you can relax in their presence. They will always welcome your ideas and actions about humanitarian causes. To keep an Aquarians lover interested you must possess that mysterious and intriguing quality. Once hooked they will always be very faithful to you.

Turn offs

Do not expect or plan a normal, simple and predictable life with an Aquarius partner. Aquarius people are totally unpredictable. They can go to any direction without giving any advance notice. They are basically very restless and get very easily bored. Though they are very friendly but do not expect them to reveal their inner most feelings to you (they will never). They can be very detached and impersonal that you may find very strange. Do not be surprised by this unpredictable quality that may crop up often

my horoscope is more accurate though...

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i'm experiencing withdrawal syndrome. havent talked to someone for a long time already...no one is making a move and i refuse to budge! today is the last day of the month!!! ahahahahaahahahhahaha

Sunday, October 29, 2006

The 90/10 Principle by Stephen Covey
Discover the 90/10 Principle.It will change your life.

What is the 90/10 Principle?
10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean?
We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down.
The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%.

The other 90% is different.
You determine the other 90%.
How? By your reaction.
You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.
You are eating breakfast with your family.
Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just had happened. What happens next will be determined by how you react.

You curse.
You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over.
She breaks down in tears.
After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table.

A short verbal battle follows.
You storm upstairs and change your shirt.
Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terribly. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter. Why? Because of how you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?
A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?
The answer is D.

You had no control over what happened with the coffee.
How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is what could have and should have happened. Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need, to be more careful next time." Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and Your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff.

Your boss comments on how good the day you are having. Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different. Why? Because of how you REACTED. You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle.
If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, Getting stressed out etc. How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off! Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later work? Why let the cars ruin your drive?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.
You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job. The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle.
Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.
You will lose nothing if you try it.
The 90-10 principle is incredible.
Very few know and apply this principle.
The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache.

There never seem to be a success in life. Bad days follow bad days. Terrible things seem to be constantly happening. There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different! Understand and apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

alot of stuff happened today...hopefully everything will be well soon...
the new tenderfoot is out and it's SUPER NICE! i'm stressed!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, October 27, 2006


more pix from diving...

Thursday, October 26, 2006

今天又下起一场雨,雨把乌给赶走了。。今天我的心情如天气,心在下雨,真希望这场雨能把乌赶走让我看得更远更清楚。。。
这场雨让我觉得好冷好冷。。

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

晴天娃娃
作词:小民作曲:小民编曲:旺福
天空下起雨啦
太阳老先生又再度蛀牙
留下
一大片棉花糖棉
花糖他溶化他溶化
最后一线希望
用卫生纸揉出晴天娃娃
为他
画上笑的嘴巴
把雨滴
赶走吧赶走吧
窗外整排的晴天娃娃
没有一个乖乖的听话
围起圈圈躲在屋檐下
讲晴天娃娃话好像有什么计画
大雨大与他愈下愈大
娃娃们突然一起撑伞
动作一致的非常狡猾
为他画的嘴巴
早知道就画上叉叉

今天下起了绵绵细雨,雨停了就会有晴天吗?我期待晴天的来临。。

Monday, October 23, 2006

had okailer gathering at yi hui's place. played mahjong for the whole night..3 words to describe it. it was crazy...haha! bad luck...shouldnt have thrown my 红中!that weirdly lucky yihui got a 大三元!i need luck!
haiz...i havent been studying since friday,need to get back on track. i'm lagging behind again! how's the white colour font??? hehe..

me and vee..

4 of us...(i cant stand the patch of water on my shirt!)

seaborne liveonboard ship...nice boat!

that's me! diving under the deepest sea...

nemo...finding its way

jellyfish...saw loads of it in the sea

sea coral..

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

我喜欢晴天娃娃!晴天娃娃灿烂的微笑让我心动让我陶醉其中。。

《晴天娃娃》
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晴天娃娃,又称扫晴娘,扫天婆,晴天和尚。流行于中国农村和日本,是一种悬挂在屋檐上祈求晴天的布偶。
日本的一部动画片《一休和尚》中,曾多次,出现过这个晴天娃娃,留给人很深的印象。
《外观》
中国的晴天娃娃常以布头或剪纸的形式制作成娃娃形象,一手拿帚,头上剪成莲花状。
日本的晴天娃娃的以方型手帕包裹乒乓球或棉团,再在圆团上绘画五官。





did badly for pc1431..expected! one of my friend recently broke up with his gf. chatted with him from 3am till 5am. can feel that he's really depressed. and the saddest thing is that he doesnt trust anyone anymore...maybe one shouldn't put in too much feelings into a relationship?

busy busy busy....

Friday, October 13, 2006

managed to catch up on my sleep today. i haven't slept for a long time already. later at the evening met up shiyao and zhihui to at bras basar complex to buy appreciation gift materials. saw alot of cute and nice stuff in artfriend. had alot of ideas but very little money. shant say too much about what we're going to do,it shall remain a secret! many people are spying my blog. scary! too bad shiyao didnt carrying his camera with him...the food we ate was nice! sooo much rubbish to do!! sian...i'm looking fwd to diving and mahjong!!! i guess they're my only motivation for now?

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

wanted to rant about how cui i am for pc1431...everyone thought it was ez...while i think that i'm going to fail. die! but...i found something very touching. hope to share it with you guys. This is an unconditional love shown from a father to a son, truly amazing!

Sunday, October 08, 2006

pc1431 is finally over and i know i'm going to fail it. haiz...i'm dumb. went to watch movie after the test. it's been years since i went to the cinema to watch a movie. went to the new GV at vivocity. watched "scoop" in the new europa cinema.it's a really nice place to watch shows. i think i'm forgoing my fav cineleisure already. moreover, vivocity is much nearer to sch compared to cine. vivocity is a really nice place with the sea view. though at the time i went there it was hazy..vivocity is going to be my next chillout spot!
Cinema Europa

scoop, i'll give it 3.5 stars out of 5

Saturday, October 07, 2006

very stressed and vexed in the midst of physics problems...i randomly designed rover's website..soooo much to be done! my IT skills sux..here's a preview!

Friday, October 06, 2006

mle test was alright..i guess i had the chemistry with chemistry related stuff. tml is pc1431 test. i think i'm going to die horribly for that. sometimes the forces are +ve, sometimes they are -ve. irritating! sometimes the forces are constant, sometimes are arent. such inconsistency! sometimes mechanical energies are conserved, sometimes they arent. why why why? nevertheless, i'm quite looking foward to tml's paper, wanna get over and done with it. i'm totally sick of the msph atmosphere. sort of studied for my pc1431, but i guess i didnt make much improvement afterall.

today is mid autumn fest, meet up with sarah at little guilin. lots of memories back there, i could still vividly remember what happened 2 years ago at the cliff. the moment when i was nearly caught by the police, it was so amusing! this year's mid autumn fest was so hazy! the burning of candles and sparklers certainly add on to the haze. the haze was very thick yet the moon was very big. it's one of the biggest moon amoungs my other mid autumn fest. this year was the only year i didnt get to eat mooncake...boo! i want my 四黄莲蓉冰皮月饼!
may the force be with me tml. whereby F=ma (madness and agony)

Thursday, October 05, 2006

there's many phrases in life...happy moments,sad moments,stressed moments,tired moments,angry moments..many UPs and DOWNs. When you're down, it's tough standing up. When you're so high up, you'll neglect those who are down below you. I hope i'll have a fair share of every bit...
When you want to do things that you like, you have to give up some things. I really do hope that i can do everything but somehow my efforts are quite limited. though i'm not really contented with what i have now, i'm trying my best to achieve them. sometimes, giving up certain things..things that i give up for..sometimes i wonder whether it's worth it or not...
sometimes, i do feel like turning back time...i've been looking forward to much, trying to jump so high that i forget what's behind me and in the end fall...
i know whatever i've typed is not coherent..but this explains why my life is in a mess...

Wednesday, September 27, 2006


one of the many berkelah waterfalls

at kranji mrt..the crowd...

welcome to my berkelah adventure!

me wrapping eyes...

the start of trek...

me and jason fooling around..with quanzi at the back

at the 1st waterfall...

me and shiyao at the 3rd waterfall..

look at the BIG mugs of sugarcane juice..


youtube resolution is not good at all...the actual one is better. anyway, i was trying to calm myself, i wasnt scared during the jump! u guys shld see the height of the jump k!
overall, berke was fun, got to know new friends though no engine one. everyone was on! i love nature!

Sunday, September 24, 2006

cyclohunt is finally over! glad that the participants had alot of fun. the winning team took the west route! chatted and ate alot of stuff with luiyee and wei huang. saw alot of weird ppl at night @ maxwell food centre. managed to know alot of new ppl along the way. some participants are really funny! there was one team who played a trick on me lah! haha...hopefully i'll get pictures soon so can post them. going to berke tml.. honestly speaking, i'm not really excited towards the trip coz it's somewhere i've been too. moreover, going with a bunch of ppl whom i dont know at all. need to remember faces and names again! troublesome...haha...i guess that's part of life in uni. you meet new ppl everyday and have to remember sooo much stuff. hopefully i'll have fun eating! chionging my online assignment now..b4 it get back to nature!

thanks dear..i'm not the sort of person who expresses my feelings but really thanks for being there for me. .

Thursday, September 21, 2006

You scored as Mathematics. You should be a Math major! Like Pythagoras, you are analytical, rational, and when are always ready to tackle the problem head-on!

Mathematics

75%

Chemistry

58%

Engineering

58%

Philosophy

58%

Theater

50%

Anthropology

42%

Biology

42%

Journalism

33%

Sociology

33%

Psychology

33%

Art

33%

Linguistics

8%

English

8%

Dance

0%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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i used to think that maths was easy, however i realised that i was very wrong when i entered uni. but i think this test kindda accurate uh? sometimes i wonder and ponder, should i have just took chemistry instead of engine? i cannot regret...hahah! ma1505,eg1101,pc1431,mle1001...my engine life!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

ss2204 test is O.V.E.R! i know i'll surely fail coz i really suck at writing essays. especially so for history essays. it's like you read through the articles and sources, trying to consume and digest the facts and dates. when it comes to the test, you're supposed to throw up (vomit) whatever you've eaten. it's super gross and disgusting! everything is everywhere...i'm just not the cut out to be a history student...with ss finally gone. i need to get back my engine and start engineering my way through...mid sems test is surely going to be a killer...BLESS ME!
1 month away to diving...

Sunday, September 17, 2006

had eg1109 test...dont talk abt it! i knew how to do it just that i missed out ONE bloody force, Fcd! i'm going to kill myself! hopefully, i'll get an S for it but i doubt so..my WHOLE truss question was in a PATHETIC mess! later had driving lesson and donated blood at west mall. it seems that hsa is doing a good job is promoting their blood drive. lots of ppl are donating blood! later on went to study for my ss and watch webcast. till now i'm still NOT SURE what's taylon's series...meet up the rovers comm member @ mac. lucky my group wasnt the latest. i cycled the west route with ck,steph,wei huang,shu ying. had alot of fun! alot of strange stuff happened too! ate beef noodle at lai lai, it's at bugis incase u guys dont know. saw a person lying at the junction at raffles place. i think he's drunk! he's shoes came off too. some malay guy went up and said weird stuff to me. cycled from 天暗到天亮!i want to say more abt the places i went but...it's a competitive event...sorry!! coz there may be spies luring around!!!

Friday, September 15, 2006

yh...i know u're reading this! are u going to help me to take my eg1109 quiz??? haha..I NEED LUCK! i'm not looking forward to this weekend as there'll be more studying to be done. next wed is my SS test again...it has been YEARS ever since i wrote essays. i hope whatever i write will be coherent and logical?

Wednesday, September 13, 2006



i have been staring at this windows for hours..i hate this! when will i see the light???

Monday, September 11, 2006

can i smog my way through??? 2.5 marks just gone like that..i guess i shouldnt set such a high aim. eg1109 quiz is coming up..tutorials are piling up..commitments are increasing...and i have no time to adapt and adjust..i guess i'm just not up to it. haiz...the optimistic me is losing optimisium...i know i typed i wrongly...BUT watever lah!
you don't understand me....neither do i understand myself

Friday, September 08, 2006

i know i'm aint great at physics. but i didnt know i really sux at it so much till today. got help from yh to teach me pc1431 and eg1109. these 2 modules are a killer! he was like shooting me..are you sure you want to study mechanical engineering? you MUST know how to draw free body diagram...till now i'm not convinced that i'm able to draw a free body diagram. it's like so much to study and remember. recalling all the stuff that i've thrown away after A's is tough too..need to change my mindset for certain formulas..it's a torture. moreover, there're much more other committments in my life. rover's, friends, tution, family..there's really much to do. i guess i'm not priorizing my stuff. gonna work things out! i can't allow my cap score to go down...

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

life sux when things don't go your way. sometimes what you want to do conflicts with what you have to do...sometimes you think you can do it but you can't do it. sometimes when you're optimistic about things and yet ppl around you are pessimist. 船到桥头自然直。。。
I NEED A PHYSICIST's MIND!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Uni life is fun. But really stress...i'd be lying if i'm saying i'm not stress at all. SO much things to be done and completed! rushing... Hwi Bee is seldom or never known to be affected by stress problems. However this time..it's really jia lat!!! NEVER ENDING STRESS!